Highlights of Week 3. (:

It's the end of the week! This is the 3rd week of 2012...
I've come up with a resolution to revive this blog by making a post every week highlighting the highlights of my week. :D
This will help me look back and reflect on things that I should be thankful for. ^^

So to start off...this week...

Class chalet with S19. <3
I really enjoyed the time spent with them. I know it'd be months before I'll see them again. So I made sure I cherished every moment spent with them. Different from the last Sentosa outing, I feel that I'd changed?

I became louder, more bimbotic....hopefully they didn't think I was trying to act cute. I'm thankful I'm still able to talk to them just as before. & Now I miss them already...

MHT group presentation.
It was just right after the chalet. Felt so cui haha~ Wells I didn't have that confident feeling, Q&A session was (N).

But somehow it made me learn even more that in life- that you always have to fight for your own chance. No one will do it for you if you don't stand up for yourself. It's just like how when the teacher opens up a Q to the group, you've to fight for your chance to answer. And lastly, be confident. At this age, it's time to understand that we're not simple anymore. Be careful of who's real and who's not.

Cheer training.
On Thursday's training, I improved on my jumps. (: I learnt to squat halfway and stood up faster. During debrief, Larry said I wasn't a good flyer for juniors to train with. But it's ok, I won't let people's words get me down. I just feel I've lost all credibility as a small flyer. Most of all, I miss being good. The feeling that everyone was proud of me, & I was confident & proud of myself.

On Friday's training, we actually learnt the nats dance from Wei Hao. It was super sexy haha. Had a hard time learning it, but somehow I managed to memorise the steps, just ain't fast enough to catch up to the song tempo. So I kept practising with Hui Juan by the side while everyone were doing their group stunts. Again, I'll choose to believe that practice makes perfect. (:

CNY Eve.
As usual, we headed to 11-storey to have CNY reunion lunch + dinner. I realised it's been 2 years since Popo passed away. I miss her non-stop yakking over meals, her constant "Nice nice, eat eat eat." I used to find it irritating, but now?

Rui Cai has changed too, people grow up eventually. He's no longer the spoilt boy we remembered, I havent seen him for too long. I hope, being him, he won't get bullied by his peers. (:

Resolutions

Not too late for my 2012 resolutions I hope. (:

1) Visit Japan again. ^^

2) Grow closer to my family.

3) Care less bout how people think of me.

4) *Stay in touch with my old friends (GM, SR) & my poly friends.*

5) Cheer: Proper b-toss straight up, Thrust, Pop twist, Round-off, Running cartwheel.

6) Maintain/Improve GPA.

7) Sleeeeep earlier zzzz.

8) Bake a successful proper cake.

9) Gather courage to wear sleeveless outside.

10) Keep the cheer passion burning.

11) Meet the one. <3

Fb makes me feel worthless

It really really sucks to be ignored, it's just another way of saying 'you dnt matter'.

I've changed my blogskin!
My previous was too childish.
Love this one, short & simple (:

Started my job as a waitress for about a week already.
Up to date, it's still pretty okay. ( Albeit very mundane & tiring at times. X) )
But can earn $ leh, of course must sacrifice lah.

My colleagues are very nice too (except my manager can be v fierce at times).
I'm so lucky lah, so far all my jobs all got nice people.
I met a few who also wants to become pastry chefs in the future. We're even entering the same poly. Awesome huh. :D
& yea, because they're really nice people, sometimes I'm afraid I might accidentally "upset" them. That kinda insecure feeling.
I suck @ explaining but, yea.
I really really hope they can recruit more people soon.
I dnt wanna be tied down by work all the time lor. Deprived of my freedom to meet up with friends.

I've been feeling very alone lately. Idk lah this sounds really stupid & childish. All my friends are schooling & they've got their own stuff & I've got mine.
& I feel really left out.
Like why am I even feeling "left out" over such things which none of us can control right?
I'm just idiotic.

P/S I miss my friends D:

Lost my purse yesterday. Sigh so hard up for cash already still lose wallet lol I'm an idiot.
Time to stop being so dreamy man. And losing stuff. & so gehkiang. Anyway, I'm glad I didn't lose my ez-link lah.
Oh, I shopped with XM yesterday too! For CNY clothes. Even tho we ended up buying only 1 top each. :B

突然觉得自己很extra.
But 算了，that's afterall the reality of life. Time to move WX!

Recently I came across a girl's blog (around our age?) who got the chance to study pastry arts abroad. Really envious of her!
I really love reading her blog.
Sometimes, she'd update with really pretty photos of desserts, her study life & even recipes!
It makes me happy whenever I'm at her site.
HER BLOG!
Visit it, who knows you might like it too.
Wah, just realised she posted a recipe on Macarons!
I'm still learning how to make it. But I'm afraid of failing cos Macarons has alot of work involved & it really is difficult to make.
Doesn't matter, one of these days, I'll make it after I've gotten all the necessary ingredients (:

So the posting results were out earlier today right.
& SR's COP hit 14 points! Awesome much!! So proud man.
But I dnt dare to say this in FB cos afterall I'm out of SR already.
I'm worried some people might say I'm trying too hard to get myself involved in things that dnt concern me anymore. Lol.
Honestly, SR is the first school I've felt the greatest sense of belonging to.
Not so for GM, albeit spending 10 years there. Idk why either.
Prolly something to do with the friends & teachers I had. Not saying my friends in GM sucked, my closest friends are from GM & classmates too!
Okay nvrm Idk how to express myself already...
Anyway yea, so proud that SR's standard hit record high! (:

TP culinary management?

JAE results out. Got into first choice.
I know everyone had been so eager to know their posting results but honestly, I didn't really feel anything.
I even almost forgot today was the posting results. I remember last year I was more hype up bout it, purposely setting my alarm in the morning just so I could see the result asap.
Then Jaime called & asked if we should appeal to TP instead. As in TPJC.
I'm glad we didn't cos I really enjoyed my time in SR (partly because I didn't study much) & the bunch of friends I made there. I believe Jaime does too.

Now that I'm gonna be a freshman in poly, it does make me feel a bit indignant & wasted & unsure of my future blahblah & I still do not know if the course is the right one for me, but ohwell, let's just hope for the best.
Anyway, there's always something to learn from every experience right!
I wonder what kinda people I'll meet in TP o.o

Anyway, I did baking today again!




I know my photography suckssss but anyway, those bakes are major fails lah. Lol doesn't matter if it's nice or not.
Maybe not so for the pancake. But the first 2 (Meringue & Souffle) are supposed to look like:
(Souffle)


(Meringue)

So nice huh, compare with mine, mine looks like shit hahah.
I think if I dont say, nobody would know what mine is.
Hopefully on my next try, it'll turn out close to the above ones!

There's the jiong show & secret garden later(:

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^^^^^ The piglet on top so cute.

Havent updated this space for weeks.
Whatever lah, I'm always saying the same thing.
Nobody reads this anyway so yea, doesnt matter.

I've been keeping a written diary since late last year cos my friend gave it to me as a bday present. I've been trying to keep a proper diary since Idk when but always fail halfway through, be it due to laziness or what. But this particular one, I've already made 10 over entries! Highest record so farrrr. & it's nice to read my past entries once in awhile. ^^

Yesterday, my mom KQ and I had a meet-up with Mr Chua!
It's really hard to coordinate events man. But anyway, it was good. No awkward moments & we managed to talk quite abit. So, yay(:
I even saw WY & Lenni on the way home!
Oh I found a new job yesterday too, as a waitress at Let's sweets! Pay's pretty good. Only worry now is my would-be colleagues, wonder if they're nice people?
& actually my colleagues at Chewy Jr aren't so bad afterall. Initially I thought they didn't like my work pace so they kept making me do SK but later I realised, approaching customers to try the puffs was part of my job scope. So actually they weren't picking on me. Plus , when I told them I was quitting after barely 3 weeks into the job, they didn't give me black face!
Moral of the story: I was just being overly sensitive.
Ohwell, I believe everyone has their "nice sides" lah.

Tomorrow I'll be stepping into church after months of absence. Wahlao awkward leh. Fearful too. Got to pick out what clothes to wear also!!!! Totally hate the wardrobe part. To me, service = social functions. Sigh.
It's weird to see someone so nerve-wrecked over church right.

Lazy to update~

I've been really lazy to update my blog these days. This is bad man. :/

& my hk post not even up yet lol.

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR! 18 seemed like a really distant number when I was in Sec 1, cant believe now it's finally here.

New year, new start yea.

Anyway, I had my class chalet earlier this week. Couldn't bear to leave at first but now I'm feeling better. I'm pretty sure I'll still see my friends :D

& I'm so happy my cookies were so popular! Even though I made it from pre-mix, it's still pretty awesome :B I'll try baking from scratch the next time!

I'm getting pretty sick of my work already. Pay so meagre, I just think it's cheap labour. Tomorrow have to go back to work again, sianzzzz.

Srsly I think my lack of dedication is gna be my downfall one day. o_o

& the past few days were the poly open houses! I visited SP & TP.

SP is just dauntingly huge! & even though TP has the smallest campus, it's still big.

I guess I'll decide on culinary & catering management rather than baking & culinary science?

Somehow I'm afraid kitchen environment isnt the thing for me, it's rugged, loud & fast-paced.

A slowpoke like me how can survive?? Ohwells, hopefully things will somehow sort out on its own.

Meanwhile, all the best to all O'Lvl peeps! :D

Back from HK!

I'm back!
Actually I was back last week lah, just too lazy to update. Yet to transfer the pics, will upload the pics when I'm not lazy to do so!
Didnt get to meet Sylvia & her family cause there wasnt enough timeee. Hopefully next time we'll get the chance again.
Mixed feelings bout this trip. Dk lah, but I'm bound to go back again for more awesome shoppinggggg!!!
& I ate alot there so I gained like 1+kg. (I was expecting to gain more but apparently all the walking worked!)
K said my face change shape -_- Not blaming him; it's the truth.
So when I was back, I went with my sis to do running. Then I realised my stamina really dipped. I could only complete 2+ 3km...not even a third of Will.run. D:

I wonder how did I even manage to complete Will.run. Time to work on my fitness alreadyyy been slacking for too long.
Oh & lazing around the past 2 months, not doing any math & whatever is also bound to degrade my brain cells. ):
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I'm finally meeting my friends this week!!! Kinda not used to it cos I used to see them everyday bu oh well, @ least we still do keep in touch! :D
Yea looking fwd to seeing them! :D

I see alot of SRGCE photos & they had so much fun!
Feeling a tiny tinge of regret for not signing up but nvrm looking @ the photos can comfort me a little.
I'm finally excited bout HK now.
Hope I'll fully recover by Friday, dnt wanna go there like a sicko.
:)

So listless the whole day

Still sickk. Sucks to be sick. I used to think it was cool to be sick. I think I must be psycho. Anyway...
just went to tighten my braces! So pain now, which is good means my braces is working its powers. (:
I kinda got a "lecture" from my dentist.
Cos I called up to "complain" about my more-and-more-crooked-teeth. I could tell she was pissed. Honestly I don't think I was in the wrong, I just did what I thought I should do. Soyeah.
My "new wires" look so hideous & funny now. Even the dental receptionist asked: Are you sure your braces has been properly done? Do you wna check with your dentist again? Hahah.
Earlier I met up with some of my F4-1 classmates. Although only a few of them turned up but we chatted quite a bit so yay.
^^
Went shopping with Ximin too. So paiseh, she waited 2 hours for me! :*
So paiseh. Recently keep inconveniencing peopleeee :/


Friends used to call me owl, they say I look like one & I guess I'm one too. Lethargic in the day & bursting with energy at night. I'd rather be the opposite though, don't wanna create the impression I'm a lazybum disinterested in everything. o_o

Past week update

My Disney job just ended last week.
I've been working throughout the past 2 weeks, I've lost track of which day of the week I was on already. Couldn't help having mixed feelings on the last day; relieved yet gna miss my colleagues too.
Well at least the last day of work ended on a good note [I hope] (:
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After that day, I went out with Lenni & JY for desserts @ Chinatown!!
Love the greentea snowice. ^^
We ordered 3 different types of desserts & ate everything together, I fell sick the next day.
Is it stomachflu? Stomachache + flu + dirraheo? Couldn't stop laosai-ing when I went to send the Lijiang people off at the airport yesterday. Fortunately the airport toilets are cleannnn!
& that was my first time taking train to the airport, quite a cool experience(:
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& we'll be going to HK this year ^^ I still dk if I'll be able to meet Sylvia there. But it seems unlikely cos our schedules don't seem to match...
& she's going to Australia to study?? I think it's so cool & brave of her. Anyhow I hope we'll have fun there!
& honestly I was hoping to go Jpn cos I miss it alot. But nevermind(:
& I remember I promised some of my friends we'll go HK together on our next visit but sorry I didnt have enough time to inform your cos this was a really last min thing sooo :/
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Oh yesterday I fell sick & I thought my fever was mothing much so I went out thinking I was okay.
Walking halfway, I saw stars & white spots everywhere.
Faces became spots of white. Kinda scary. I think that was a fainting sympton.
But thank God I didnt cont'd walking till my vision cleared & I rmb passer-bys were staring at me...Did I look like I was drunk.
K I just hope I'll be well enough for the trip, I wanna eat their food!

This sucks.

They think I've no social life.

So sick of it...


But it can't change memories
Zach said, "anyway... everyone is emotional over such things... just that they don show out, observe humans more!!!".
Really meh? I dont think popular people will feel this way though. It's like the more you have, the more unsatisfied you are? Idk lah. o_o I sound so opinionated.
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Anyway, yesterday I met KQ & I was just talking to her bout my work & stuff. Then it's like very soon we'll leave school & start working in society. Then it struck me like Wow wo men zhen de zhang da le. 5 years, we really changed a lot!
Hmm, well, thanks (again) for trying to solve my problem yea. ♥
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Oh noo my mom accidentally bought the wrong type of shampoo

She bought the blue one instead of the usual green one.
I reckon both should work fine right? Like my dandruff won't come back againnn (like how it used to) & my scalp wont itch like shiiiiiiit. I still remember during that period I always chose to sit at the back so people won't see my horrible dandruff. & my scalp wont itch damn badly everytime after I bathe! So gross right. Dont bathe better. But honestly now, I dnt really care lah haha. But still, I dont want dandruff!!
Okay.........I just googled & actually all are anti-dandruff LOL.
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I noticed some changes in my voice recently. It's like deeper now & it'll crack occassionally. It's not voice-break huh. Probably cos I've been talking alotalot for the past few days. & today I had sudden flu outbreak at work, I almost suffocated to death sneezing & talking! Hate flus. :/ Hmm, just tahan for a few more days!
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I kinda miss brown rice a little.
Speaking of which, tomorrow I may be seeing S19! But highly unlikely also. Cos my work ends so late. ):
Can't wait for chalet (:
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Recently I've been making alot of friendship bands & guess what? My work there actually has a DIY store which sells like keychain hooks, strings, beads + all the DIY stuff!! I was so thrilled when I discovered that shop lah! Plus it's so much cheaper than PS's Beadtlesweet. Jian dao bao! :D
Handicrafts are so fun man. C:

My rainbow nice huh.

Sometimes I'm afraid to make new friends. I always fear I dont turn out the way people expect me to. & they'll eventually leave. Is this fear irrational?

Today's my 5th day at work. Time flies. (WL recently I keep whining about how time passes so quickly. Proof that I'm getting old :P)
9 more days to go.
I seriously hate having to talk non-stop for 6 hours but I really enjoy my team's company.
I guess I'm not really cut out for communicating w/ kids, my patience doesn't allow me to.
& so, I feel I havent done my job well.
I really like my team leader, she's a very funny & easy-going lady & she always places our interests first even tho we're only part-timers.
& I like my team people too (:
Idk if it's just me but I'll miss them after these 2 weeks. Sometimes I think I'm too emotional over such things. I feel I'm just giving myself undue anxiety.

Anyway, I have this gut feeling that my team leader doesn't like me. The reasons I can think of being:

1) I'm not serious in my work.

2) I give her the impression that I always come up with excuses.

For example, earlier I was already told to wear formal. Given no experience in formal clothes (sounds so retarded) I wore a jumper to work thinking it's formal. LOL how did I even dare to step into the office?? I really really had no idea my attire was SUPER informal. Embarrssing max. Then when my leader asked me, "So what you wearing ah Wanxin!"

I was like "Huh? This one not formal meh!". I bet she thought I was just trying to talk back or something. Shucks lah. I really didn't mean it. ):

Just came back from work.
So tiredzzzz.
Supposed to go out with SuHui tomorrow after work but yea it ends too late so oh well. :/
We got out after 3rd Dec ok! (:
Today the office people told me I must wear formal from Monday on weekdays and guess what
I wore short pants today! Lololol. Embarrassed max.
So tomorrow must wear formal. I've got no formal though :/
But things will always figure out somehow.
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Speaking of work. My working attitude was rather good during the first 2 days but it's beginning to dwindle away now.
Honestly it's not easy if you have to do the same thing for 6hrs everyday & my voice as usual just rusts away.
Why am I like that. I even eat at my desk & eat while talking to the kids. Wahlao. I obviously know it's wrong but I cont'd doing it. Wts. I hope after self-reflecting I'll stop it. Afterall it's only for 2 weeks.
Some of the kids that call in are really cute. Just today when I asked one 7-year-old where he stays. He answered I live in a house lah! Cutee.
Recently I've been interacting quite a bit with kids & kids are really tian zhen. Really miss the times when I was like that too.
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So true huh. I seriously hate it when I over-think things yet I can't help it. Nothing good ever comes out of it.
Just stop expecting & just take whatever comes my way. As always, no expectations = no disappointments.

My first job training

Today I went for my first job training.
Although the journey to & fro took me 3+ hours, the job itself was pretty fun. Idk lah, actually it’s still too early to say since I’ve yet to start on the job.
It’s like we have to pick up calls from kids calling in to take part in some Disney contest etc. Sounds kinda cute right.
& my colleagues (not very used to this word) were rather friendly too.
I wasn’t the only part-timer there, there were other people of my age too. & I’m glad I managed to make friends with them on the first day! :D
Since all of them had friends with them & I was the only one alone, I felt kinda inferior at first. Plus I didn’t expect to work with other part-timers.
But then they turned out to be quite nice so yay. ^^ I hope things go well. I also realised I tend to act cool when I have low self-confidence.

Yesterday went to Sentosa with S19!
I overcame my psychological barrier too.
Though I still dont dare to play ball games.
Havent played @ a beach for some time now. Think the last time was in Sec2 when my class went to Palawan Beach? Woah 3 years!
It was my first time seeing for myself how a proper beach looked like with all the beach goers etc. Lol. Tiring but very fun yay(:

Idk why my teeth seems to get more crooked.
My back tooth won't get out + I've wasted 2 months.
I think my dentist's gonna be unhappy bout this.
I cant wait for my teeth to be straight!!!! :D