oh-nix-naw

Sometimes I'm afraid to make new friends. I always fear I dont turn out the way people expect me to. & they'll eventually leave. Is this fear irrational?

Today's my 5th day at work. Time flies. (WL recently I keep whining about how time passes so quickly. Proof that I'm getting old :P)
9 more days to go.
I seriously hate having to talk non-stop for 6 hours but I really enjoy my team's company.
I guess I'm not really cut out for communicating w/ kids, my patience doesn't allow me to.
& so, I feel I havent done my job well.
I really like my team leader, she's a very funny & easy-going lady & she always places our interests first even tho we're only part-timers.
& I like my team people too (:
Idk if it's just me but I'll miss them after these 2 weeks. Sometimes I think I'm too emotional over such things. I feel I'm just giving myself undue anxiety.

Anyway, I have this gut feeling that my team leader doesn't like me. The reasons I can think of being:

1) I'm not serious in my work.

2) I give her the impression that I always come up with excuses.

For example, earlier I was already told to wear formal. Given no experience in formal clothes (sounds so retarded) I wore a jumper to work thinking it's formal. LOL how did I even dare to step into the office?? I really really had no idea my attire was SUPER informal. Embarrssing max. Then when my leader asked me, "So what you wearing ah Wanxin!"

I was like "Huh? This one not formal meh!". I bet she thought I was just trying to talk back or something. Shucks lah. I really didn't mean it. ):