Last post for the 2oo9.

Yay. Just hit my 100th post!
Though not quite a big achievement after like 2 years of keeping this blog, but still…hahaha.

Let’s see what happened the past few days.

2 days ago:
Went for class outing with H.Huiqing, Heather, Baybeh, Sean and a few others to watch Sherlock Holmes.
Honestly, I had a hard time catching their speech cause they were speaking so quickly!
But I still managed to get a rough idea of the storyline lah.
So not too bad!
What matters is the company of my classmates!
And I agree with Weimei, Leap Year sounds quite promising (:

After the movie, while the rest stayed to lunch together, I had an appt with the doctor reg my bloatedness and lack of appetite.
So I couldn’t lunch with them ):
The visit to the doctor was ultra embarrassing.
Shan’t talk about the details k.
Perhaps it could be due to the fact that it was my first visit to that doctor?
He’s now my doctor in-charge leh.
Ok lah, come to think of it, he’s not that bad either considering the stacks of patients’ files on his table he had to clear.

So, he discovered a lump in my left abdomen which we’re not sure is what until scan reports are out.
Then went for blood-test (the needle ):!) followed by CT scan yesterday at some Camden medical centre in Orchard (made me dislike Orchard even more).
Dislike not because of the scan but the locating of our destination was terrible (partly because it was orchard LOL).
The medical staff there were great! ;D
Very friendly and patient. Hehe.

I wonder if it’s coincidence or what. But almost all of the staff that took care of me have children who are younger than me (around primary school) but because of my size, are almost like me.
They said looking at me reminds them of their kids.
Hahaha.

So now am waiting for some endoscopy procedure next month to have a more inside look into my abdomen.
Yup. Hope everything’s gonna be fine (:

After the scan yesterday, Mom, my cousin and I went to Sizzler’s for the salad bar buffet.
The name itself might lead you into thinking that it’ll definitely not make you full but it’s not!
All of us stuffed ourselves until our stomach could burst anytime.
Plus, they even had ice-cream.
How can anyone resist ice-cream?
The ice-cream was the ultimate.
I swear I won’t touch buffet for a long long long time.

This is the last day of 2009 and in just a couple more hours, we’ll be entering into a new year!
Exciting? Hahaa.

Going out with classmates to watch movie tomorrow!
Yay ^^

Doctor's appointment is also tomorrow.
I wonder what they're gonna do with me.
Can't believe God answered our prayers!
My turn was supposed to be in March but they managed to slot me in tomorrow so Mom doesn't have to specially take leave again to bring me there. Haha (:

Thanksgiving item for XS party yesterday is also finally over!
Totally embarrassed myself on stage.
And still can't get over it yet.
Yeah, it felt like a re-enactment from the XS camp scene. D:
But glad that Georgi liked it.
Hahaha.

Oh and also went for the Converse sale with Naomi after church yesterday!
They had great finds there!
LOL.
We each bought kappa shoes for just $10 each!
75% discount!
Worth it anot?!
Hahah.
Of course, that came with having to squeeze and ransack with the super huge crowd there.
We could have gotten better finds if we went earlier.
But oh well, at least we got some stuff for ourselves!
Haha.
Had XLB too. With 2 cousins! XD
Idk if it's my first time or what.
But it wasn't quite what I expected leh.
I think I prefer yam dumpling.
LOL.

K, just a random post to sum up my weekend.
BYE!

XS Party's GEE dance! ):

XS Christmas party is tomorrow! (ok, it's after 12 so it's today -.-)
And my cell is gonna do the gee dance for Georgi (my cell leader).
You know G for Georgi mah.

I'm terribly worried now!!
D:
In the afternoon, when Raewyn was teaching us (mass-teaching), I couldn't even catch up with the steps leh! ):
I can't even remember the steps! Not to mention dance!
Thanks, but please don't mention that I was a chinese dancer :X
A chinese dancer who can't dance is embarrassing~~

I'm like super duper worried now.
I'm afraid I'll embarrass myself on stage tomorrow.
I don't wanna develop stage-fright then my mind conks out.
I don't wanna embarrass my cell and drag them down with me. (esp not when they've put in so much effort to put up this performance!)
I don't wanna further spoil my image in front of XS!
I don't wanna be standing on stage like a fool while everyone else is dancing to the song.

Noooo. I don't want ):
I really don't want to implicate my cell members!
That was what happened when we had to put up a skit for the XS camp last year.
I can never forget that experience! And I don't ever want to experience that trauma tomorrow! D:

Tell me, what do I do?
I tried learning on youtube from various tutorials but nothing gets absorbed into my brain leh!
Sighsighsigh.
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Ok, it's time to stop whining and take some real action.
Shall go learn the dance naooo.
Bye


Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone!
I still consider now as Friday :P
Hope your had fun celebrating with your friends& family!(cos I didn't D:)


P/S I still need to thank Raewyn for agreeing to help me with the vid ytd [:
Otherwise, I'll be dead.

Embarrassed to the max

Went to the polyclinic with my mom in the afternoon regarding my stomach bloatedness.
Quite pissed with the doctor.
Without any basis, he simply assumed I had an eating disorder (anorexia, to be exact).
Though he didn't say I was anorexic (he only "suspected" ED), but every sentence he spoke already told me he was thinking so.
WL eh.
To worsen things up, my mom couldn't shut her mouth on my eating behaviour to the doctor.
She kept repeating and repeating the same thing again and again.
Then in the end what happened? Instead of identifying with my bloatedness (which is one of the reasons for my ED), he said the bloatedness was PSYCHOLOGICAL because I was afraid to get fat!
Fyi, I'll always get bloated after every meal and it's REAL! My stomah will expand up to 3 times okay! Not because I psychoed myself into thinking so like what the stupid doctor said! idiot.

Okay, so that matter aside.
Later on, my mum coincidentally ran into an old friend who is now selling drinks in the hawker.
I don't even know him ok! They said he's seen me grow up ever since I was in my mom's womb but whatever..I still don't remember anything.
Then my mom began telling him (she was talking at the top of her voice)all about our visit to the doctor including my personal health issues blahblahblah.
It was damn shit lah.
And I was sitting there all along, I had to fight with myself to lift my head up and look at him.
?!?!??
Why can't she be more sensitive huh?

Forget it I don't wanna repeat all my crap like in the past anymore.
Even I'm sick of it.

My rants have ended.
And I realised I'm so good at ranting than posting about happy stuff.
LOL.

Bye.


P/S can the stupid window movie maker work please?
Now I'm frustrated to the max.

Clay charms !

Hello.

I'm currently into miniature clay charms-making.
Here's what I mean:

Hahaha.
Aren't they so cute?
Just like baking, it's also creating your cupcakes, cookies, cakes and whatnot
except you don't have any cleaning up to do! :DD
And I don't have to worry about whether my food will come out good anot.

Initially I only tried this kinda clay-making for decoration of the clothes pegs' sake but somehow, I got increasingly interested in it so I began making cupcakes, lollipops blahblah after that
I thought they turned out quite well haha.
Sounds like my clay-making skills are even more promising than my baking ones!
I shall take some photos of the satisfactory ones and upload them (:

Speaking of which, here are some of my Japan pics which I think will take forever to upload because of stupid blogger's image uploader thing:

hello kitty baos! cute huh!

diver dressed as a santa claus to suit the festive season!

@ their universal studios.

super cute-looking marshmallows (from muji, yes that muji) bought from their convenience store.

inside their bullet train.

The bottom pics are the oldest and the top ones are the more recent ones.

Think will only upload these for today.

cos the disc burning thing cranked up again!! D:<

Trying to burn the photos into a disc for the

second time.
Have no idea what went wrong the first time.
-
I've packed the foods I bought for my friends and cell ! ^^
*Satisfied*
Can't wait to pass it to them. Hope they won't mind the food.
No, they're nice people. I'm sure they won't. (:


Just now baybeh called.
It's been so long since we last met up (the last day of our paper).
1 month since I last saw her!
There was a F4/1 gathering just now with captain ball games but I didn't go.
Reason: too lazy + unpacking to do and fear of balls.
Heard from baybeh that quite a lot of people turned up. Haha.
Even JunXing!
So unexpected.
Baybeh asked me if I'd like to go for some carnival event on Sat.
Well, still contemplating whether to go not.
Should I?


P/S. second burning of the disc was successful. shall upload them next!

P/SS. on second thought, I'm too lazy to upload the pictures onto blogger. Lol. Sorry! ><

I miss Japan ):

Back from Japan!
And I'm already missing it ):

JAPAN IS AWESOME!
The people there, the food, the scenery, everything!

Japanese are really an awesome bunch of people I tell you.
(I wouldn't say the same for those in Tokyo but those in the outskirts like Osaka and Kyoto, you'll be truly touched by their warm-heartedness.)

Before I met them, I never knew in modern day society, there would still be people who would go the extra mile to personally guide you to your destination when you're lost.
Can you believe that when we asked passer-bys in Osaka and Kyoto for directions, almost all of them offered to personally guide us there despite how busy they were?
There was one guy whom I think was on his way to school when we approached him.
And without hesitation, he immediately told us to follow him while he showed us the way to our hotel.
The best part is, it's not 1 or 2 who were this kind, all of them were!
Wow, right!
I was super impressed lor.
And I swear that if next time, should someone approach me for directions, I'll definitely extend the same kindness to them.
If I was shown this kindness, why shouldn't I pass it on?

So, I was talking about the Tokyo people being the exception.
Well, I guess I wouldn't blame them huh?
Afterall, it's Tokyo-the busiest city in the entire world? O.O
People there are just too busy rushing here and there to stop and listen to you.
They weren't that hostile anyway, just that compared to their fellow Japs in other cities, they weren't as helpful.
When we asked them for help, most still listened and guided you.
Actually, it was rather funny because we know how outrageous some Japs (esp those in Tokyo) dress right?
And some of them had that kind of punky outlook which makes us feel as though they're ready to punch us anytime we approach them.
But still, we asked them for directions and what you get is rather surprising, their hostile front melts down and you realise they're just like any one of us lor.
Haha.
It was quite fun, I thought.

Next thing, the food there!
I never got enough of their mochi!
They even had those wrapped with real strawberry fruits! ♥
Yummy!
In fact, in Japan, mochi is called daifuku which translates to 大福 in chinese.
Haha, so cute right.

And they also have so many interesting stuff there.
I love visiting their convenience stores.
It's so different from those in Singapore!
You can practically find everything in there.
Even buns and cakes are sold in packaged forms!
And their breads are very chewy too, nicer than those fresh from the oven kinds.
I love their rice too!
It's nice just eating their plain rice alone cause the grains are so plump and chewy, not those tough, longish kind we eat in Singapore.

Oh, and Miza's so cute!
Miza's a little girl from Sg we met while we were there!
Teehee.
Free-and-easy's so fun!
You get to witness the way of life of the people there. {:

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Wellwell...
I guess I'll just update up to here.
The rest, I'll probably be too lazy to type out.
So long it's still in my brain can already.
I just wanted to share about the kindness of the Japanese people.
Haha.

* Pictures shall be up soon!

LOL =.=

Just had a freakin quarrel with my mom over packing issues -.-

I don't understand why she must bring along so much redundant stuff only to risk losing them in a foreign country?

It's damn ironic when she was the one who instructed us to TRAVEL LIGHT.
Travel light my foot.
We're on our own, hello?

-.-

:DD

Whee~
Flying off in 4 more hours! :D

We'll have 2 meals on-board, so cool right.
I know this will be weird but I love plane meals (:
To me, it just feels very high-class and all (though nothing compared to first class lah...but still).
I think you'll see me gain a few kilos when I'm back. o.o
Yep haha.

So, will be back on the 16th!

Oops, I've yet to inform my cell about it, feels as though I'm very irresponsible leh.
Don't you think so? ):

Ok yeah, till then!

-
P.S I've also got my itinerary done up last night. FINALLY! Am very proud of myself, heehee(:

(:

Am currently browsing through some recipes, out of curiosity.
The pictures are making me hungry ):
Well whatever, I'm always craving for food anyway.
-

It's 4 more days before the trip! :D
Can't wait!

But then...
our itinerary's still not up yet.

Err,
I just volunteered to plan one for the Tokyo part since Kenneth has already done the Osaka part.
Must have some auto button mah.

So,
I need to know how to start.
You know, have it all planned and typed out like a real itinerary on those travel brochures...
Yeah.
That's gonna take up a lot of time lor.
I hope I can finish by tomorrow/ Sunday.

And after the tour, I'll be jobless once more.
Long story, shan't talk about it.
But today, the supervisor asked me if I'd like to go back to work after that.
I replied no, saying it was tough work and all...
Then she said every kinda work is tough, what's important is the attitude.
That got me thinking: what am I gonna do next time? I barely pulled through merely 2 weeks of the job. ):
I think I'm gonna search the newspapers for more jobs after that lo.
Surely rotting at home for a month is too long right.
And, I make sure I won't look up jobsites. Idiot.
Until FooXin mentioned it, I think I probably got cheated the other time. >:(

Oh, I also went shopping yesterday and today alone.
Yes, I know how loser that sounds but I can't bear to call my friends out and use up their time while they pei me shop for my things. Get what I mean?
Though I've already got most of the items on my shopping list, I was so very self-conscious
the whole time while I was buying my stuff.
Like I was thinking what others would be having in their heads: what is this girl (who's probably in pri school) doing shopping alone? She got money meh? Does she know what she's doing? Etc etc.
[Plus, I got weird stares from the older adults while I was browsing around the shop okay.]
Overly self-conscious. Maybe?
Well, whatever the case, at least I managed to cross those barriers and still got what I wanted.
Why do I sound as if I'm on some life-and-death mission?
Lol.

K bye, off to skipping (to skip off my food cravings)!

Worried ):

About 2 things:
first, the Japan trip and second, the Supervisor's response to Weimei's resignation.

So, the Japan holiday...
Since we're gonna be on our own, we need to be resourceful enough help us get around the country better right.
And the problem is, it's only a week until our departure but we have yet to finalise things! O:
(Oh, I just realised A'levels just got over)
Mom's even planning to visit Disneyland on a Sunday, Lol.
I've got a feeling we're gonna bump into a lot of troubles planning the itinerary.
Oh well, let's just see how things go.

Ok, then today Weimei told the supervisor that she wants to resign after her trip but the response that she got was,
they might dock her pay for failing to inform them before taking up the job (I kena-ed too but cause I worked for a shorter period than her, mine was less severe)
Then I was thinking, our pay is already pathetic enough and we have to work till our legs break and they still wanna cut our pay?
That could have been only a threat but still...
I don't know lah, let's just see what the lao-ban says tomorrow.
Meanwhile, don't worry too much about it, Weimei (:

And today, we had to do stock-taking and for some reason, I just couldn't stop dropping the vegetables.
I dropped one box of vegetables onto the floor twice and the second time, I made one shopper jump.
I found her behaviour damn typical Singaporean lor.
Ugh.
Never mind, shall not talk about it here.

k, bye {:

YAY :D

I just made Green Tea pudding and pancake!
And I thought it was my most successful baking attempt. (:
Since today's my off day, I thought I'd just bake to kill time.
And the food turned out good!
Haha. Shall bring some for my aunt and KQ to try later.
Hee :D

Anyway, had BBQ for Mr Chua's tuition class yesterday evening.
Brought fishballs and sushi platter.
Have to thank KQ for helping me carry them all the way to the condo! (:
Yup, so, while the other students were busy setting up the fire at the pit, I didn't help out at all.
Felt kinda guilty...
but then, was too embarrassed to ask them if they needed help.
So in the end, I only ate while the rest did the cooking. ):

And another thing was, Mr Chua never knew who my mom was until yesterday when he finally got to meet her.
Like after 16 years?!
He immediately recognized her the moment they met.
There's just this sense of familiarity and amazement lor.
It felt as if they were long-lost friends who had lost touch with each other for many many years and finally got a chance to meet again.
And on our last gathering somemore!
(:

So after that, we played card games + truth or dare with the tuition people.
Was so funny luh.
Well, yesterday would probably have been the last time we'll see each other.
Unless some of us enter the same school, then of course, things would be different.
Am glad that most of them turned up yesterday to have a last get-together.
We even took a group photo!
Hope Yin Shuang would tag me on facebook with it!

I don't know, but I guess this would be how I'll feel when we get our results next year.
Like we know we'll never see our classmates/schoolmates anymore.
It's damn sad leh.

Dilemma

Just came back from applying for job.

Thanks Weimei for helping me out(:
Not sure whether successful or not.
Because of my size and all, they're not sure if I can carry heavy stuff. /:
Kinda expected actually.
If there are 2 candidates, one of them with my size, surely they'll choose the other right.
So now am waiting for their reply lor.

Being short sucks ok.
Once I told my cousin I hate being small.
She said, being petite will make you look younger and who doesn't wanna look younger?
I think I'll have to agree with her on that.
In the past, it was common for me to lie about my age so I don't have to pay for adult tickets =.=

But then, being small, it's really really difficult finding clothes that fit.
Everytime I see clothings that I like, I can only admire cause I know I can never fit into it.
And it's embarrassing to try it on then to realise it's simply too large for me.
LOL.
Then people will commonly associate pint-size = weak.
So they'd think you can't do many of the things that normal-sized people can.

Anyway, back to the topic of being small will make you seem younger.
That is a good thing when you hit middle-age but not when you're a teenager.
To be mistaken for a primary school kid when you're already 16 is damn embarrassing.
Especially when people exclaim in disbelief and the surrounding people hear them too.
For example:
Aunty: Which primary school are you from ah?
Me: Huh, er, I'm sec 4...
Aunty: HUH?! You're sec 4 already ah! Wah, you look like you still in primary school leh!

Lol, enough of my rants.

Anyway, just now while on the bus, I was sitting behind one guy who looked slightly older than us.
Halfway through the journey, I suddenly heard him singing to himself (quite loudly somemore).
Initially I thought he was simply listening to his music player.
But then, a while later, he pulled out his umbrella and began knocking my head with it!
At first I ignored it.
Then he started again, this time laughing to himself.
What the.
So I changed my seat.
Then he gave me this stupid face which irritated me even more.

I just rolled my eyes at him.
What the shit lor, seriously.
Fancy being harrassed by a mad man on a bus.
Dots.

Lastly, this would sound rather ironic but a guy called me an
AUNTIE just now. Haha.

2012

Hi.

Caught 2012 with KQ just now at Bugis.
The movie lasted 3 hours lah!
Damn tiring just sitting there and staring at the screen the whole time.
Plus the seats at the theatre had to be so high!
Shorties can get blocked leh.
I couldn't even read the subtitles and I can't understand angmoh english well so I kinda had to guess what was happening in the show...
The people sitting behind us also had to irritate us further by constantly kicking our chairs /:
So I fought back by talking at my normal volume, which I think didn't make any difference anyway -.-

So, after the movie inside the super chilly theatre, KQ and I quickly rushed to look for the toilet since that would probably be the only non-aircon place.
But for some reason, everyone had to choose that time to release themselves so we had to queue for it and bear with the coldness longer.
LOL.

Oh, KQ bought me the kappa shoe I wanted too!
Hee :D
Damn happy! Even my mom said it's nice! :D
I ate chewy junior also!
Doesn't the name sound so cute?
I've been craving for it since O's started.
Finally I get to eat it!
Had trouble looking for a suitable place to eat it though.
In the end, we had to hide behind the lifts there to eat.
It's so awkward to eat in front of the crowd right.
It feels as if you're constantly being watched as you're munching on your food.

Anyway, today, KQ accompanied me to look for jobs around Aljunied area , tried a few, but weren't successful.
It's kinda embarrassing when you get rejected you know.
But at least some did it in a tactful manner so not so bad.
Sad things aside, I still managed to get hold of 2 interviews today!
One is Weimei's job and the other is telemarketer.
Thanks to Weimei's, the manager allowed me to apply again!
Haha.
And the telemarketer one is at some orchard hotel shopping arcade.
-.-
I don't even know where's that lah.
Googled it but still can't find the location.
And it's at orchard area!
I know this is weird but I hate orchard areas cause it feels so high-class and all.
I'll just feel very inferior being there, surrounded by mostly rich people?
:S

So, hope my application tomorrow goes well (:

Jobs, any?

Currently seeking jobs on job sites.
LOL.
Didn't get to buy newspapers so decided to try the internet.
Worked though, haha.
Found a few suitable ones, would call them tomorrow morning.
Haha, I'm not scared anymore(at least for now) since I've already tried a few today.

Oh, Liuzhi got her job!
As a telesurveyor! She's gonna start work really soon.
Haha.
Saw what a job interview would be like and it wasn't as scary as what I thought it'd be.
Her trainer(?) was quite pleasant too.
Haha.
Hope she would have a good time working there (:
Well, the working world isn't as intimidating as it looks, is it?
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Also attended WL's wake today.
For some reason, I feel more shocked than sadness.
Probably because I've never tried to get to know him?
The only time I got to have a proper interaction with him was during one chinese lesson when he guided me on a cloze passage.
Yup.
And the last time I spoke to him, I was offering some dried guava fruits to him.
How random huh.

This afternoon, when I had to leave earlier for my job interview(which I never went),
I felt I was kinda mean to do so.
Especially after his dad encouraged us to stay and have our lunch before leaving.
:/

Oh man.
I'm sorry for being so insensitive. D:

RIP, WL.
I do share the same sentiments as Kenneth;
you'd probabaly have a happier life after this. (:

:S

Just came back from the doctor to seek treatment for my bloatedness &
hopefully a letter to substantiate my application to the SEAB...
LOL, didn't work though (expected).
It's like so dumb
cos the last time I went to his clinic was in 2007.
Why would he even pen a letter when we'll just be verbalising the problems to him?
-.-
Sigh.
Oh, and he said I was anaemic.
He compared my palms with his and mine was like bloodless and very icy.
Lol.

Anyway, yesterday went to Wild Wild Wet with church peeps :D
It was my first time there.
This is so laughable, I know. /:
But better late than never (:
It didn't turn out as crowded as I'd expected and the toilets were surprisingly clean too!
We had to 'steal' floats from the wave pool because there were none at the lazy river there. Haha.
Eunice was great in that heehee :D
Then the slides,
I got stuck inside the tube one. -.-
First time getting stuck inside a slide, how embarrassing.
Fortunately there wasn't anyone inside to see me.

Then there was the one with the huge float.
That was more thrilling (:
The U-shaped thing was also exciting!
Kelly and I had so much trouble dragging the gigantic float up the stairs lor.
We couldn't decide whether to place it over our heads or pull it sideways.
In the end, I think we looked rather silly in front of others. D:

At the end of the day, I finally became tanner!
Haha.
:D
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I'm still having trouble plucking up courage to call up for job vacancies.
I've already cut the suitable ones out but have yet to call them yet.
Oh man.
I'm scared ley.
What if they see my size then they just don't even consider me?
Sigh.
But there's always a first time in everything right, Liuzhi?
:D
so, I'd better act fast before the jobs get taken up.

Bye Os ! :D

Today(Yesterday) marks the end of our O'levels!
Woots ;D
Everyone went cheering immediately after the paper ended.
No more tied down with piles & piles of homework! Heehee.
Oh, those who went Malaysia just now, have fun there! (:

After leaving school,
went shopping with LiuZhi.
She practically wants to buy everything she sees lah.
We walked around and saw so many cute stuff.
If only we had money, we could have just picked and go.
Wait till we earn our money, getting what we want wouldn't be a problem (;

& I seriously need to learn to part with my money man.
What's money if you're not spending it right.
LOL.
Plus, I'm thinking of taking up a job = more money for shopping
so I don't have to worry about using up my savings :D

I also saw Mr Bean advertising GREEN TEA ICE-CREAM ! :O
Green tea!
I wonder when the other outlets would start selling them so to satisfy my green tea cravings. (:
Can't wait!



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And I got ticked off by my sis for spending too much on my mom's bday card.
LOL.
We were supposed to split the costs equally but apparently she thinks I spent way too much on a card alone.
Which I kinda agree also. It came up to bout $15.
:/
But I feel so indignant lor.
How can she scold me for buying and making the card by myself while both of us get the credit?
Wahlao.
This happens every year can. I feel so made use of lah.
Ugh, whatever.


He's also back from his holiday today
and I quarrelled with him the first day he came back.
=.=
Why can't he stay away longer?
Then I won't have to worry bout being a sucker.
Even though he has tried to make amends but
the problems will never get resolved man.
Think so easy meh?
:/
The problems simply pile up over time.
Think a simple gesture would break the ice?
No way lor.
Unless he's willing to change, otherwise,
nothings's gonna change.
-.-

(:

This year, Mom has decided on Japan for holiday!
I couldn't believe it when she first told us
Cause she's always like, Japan so expensive. I cannot afford to bring you 2 go, I think I can only pay for myself.
Then just a few days ago, she suddenly changed her mind.
And it's gonna be free-and-easy so no more boring historical sites and heritage tours whatnot! Haha.
Initially I didn't wanna go cause Sis wasn't going so I thought it'll be very lonely and everything but now that she has changed her mind, I can't wait! ((:

Oh, and I can't wait for O'levels to end too!
Tomorrow's the last paper already! :D
I've got so many things I wanna accomplish leh!
Shopping, making the farewell gifts, preparing my mom's present, baking blahblah.

Speaking of baking, I made pancakes yesterday but they didn't turn out as expected (again).
Initially it was still okay when they were freshly out from the pan but after they cooled down, they became very hard so nobody wanted to eat it.
I even added strawberry milk so the pancake would be more enticing but still, not nice means not nice.

My mom just called me to tell me about what the people at the examination board's gonna do about my Geog paper.
She said they hope to make use of my prelim results to see if it can help the situation.
But I think it's gonna make me feel so awkward because I got a C5 grade for that subject and I'm afraid the markers there might think I didn't study for the subject so they won't be bothered also.
LOL.
Whatever, I'd better not worry so much.
Worrying won't help anyway.
:D

And finally, those going for the KL trip,
enjoy yourselves!
:D

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Why ask me when you don't even care about what I think?

Prelim's over ♥

Hey (:
Prelim's over!
The papers were relatively easy and today was the chinese paper.
The weather was pretty cool this afternoon, so conducive for napping and so yep, I fell asleep while doing the paper halfway.
The weird thing is, in the end I managed to finish my paper and even had time to check. LOL.
Why?! I couldn't even finish the O'level one even though I didn't sleep leh.

It's been like damn long since I last posted. I always say the same thing lor...
but I DON'T do anything about it.
I think I should really change this habit of mine, that is, in everything I do if not I'm just gonna end up hurting people.

Today, Liuzhi and Fooxin were talking about eyebags & dark circles and after listening to their discussion, I wondered about how disastrous my eyebags are compared to theirs.
I can even feel it.
And then how I even managed to look at people with such panda eyes.
I should really catch up on my sleep and pray that eyebags won't appear when I wake up on Saturday mornings so I won't get a scare when I stare into the mirror.

Jaime, KQ and Kenlia shared the shepherd's pie I brought to school.
And I realised how long it had been since we shared a meal together?
We've been so busy with things in our lives that we don't really catch up with each other...?
I find today rather nostalgic.

Oh and, I pour water over the cakes that I eat because I think they taste better that way. You should try it too, you'll never know whether you'll like it hahaha.
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I suddenly felt very sick of typing out my thoughts...

So! shall come back when I'm back in the mood to blog again [which would most certainly be a month later]!
Bye ♥
(for now at least)

NDP' 2009.

I havent been blogging for so long already.

Well, actually I just posted 2 weeks ago just that it wasn't published.
I just realised that I have a lot more drafts now than I used to have.
I also notice blogger doesn't have the font colour changing buttons anymore. Why?!
My post will look even duller now...
Edit: the buttons are back now.
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I just had an awkward conversation with some unknown guy on my MSN list who later turns out to be my primary classmate's friend. -.-

.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
hi hu is this??
Wanxin says:
wanxin?
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
from...?
Wanxin says:
i dont think i know you either, haha.
Wanxin says:
gmss
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
hmm that's weird how'd you make it to my msn lol
Wanxin says:
i dont know?
Wanxin says:
forgotten i guess
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
if i remember correctly you added me...hmm
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
what's your pri sch?
Wanxin says:
gmps
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
hmm...
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
you know calvin cher??
Wanxin says:
yea
Wanxin says:
oh you're his friend
Wanxin says:
lols
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
yep...and i think i know how you got here...
Wanxin says:
how?
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
well vaguely
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
but it's related to him
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
OHHH yes
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
you were asking him something on HIS msn
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
then i replied you and told you to add me if there's anything else...now i remeber DX
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
*XD
Wanxin says:
huh? so...what did i ask him?
Wanxin says:
oh i recall now!
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
some computer thingy
Wanxin says:
yeah
.: -XY- :. KOKUGEN! says:
haha....alls well ends well..

All's well ends well.
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Mom's going Batam with aunt, Aunty Lulu& family tomorrow morning.
She and aunt kept asking me to go.
Mummy said it'll give me a chance to unwind-temporary escape from my stupid stressful, depressing schoollife.
My aunt was so cute, she said, "ni bu yao gen wo qu, wo bu yao gen ni hao le.".
But in the end, I still decided not to go.
I shall not mention the reason here...people might think I'm mad.
If only I still had a maid...

Speaking of sucky schoollife,
the past few weeks in school were a killer.
On average, we have 2 tests every week on top of piles & piles of homework. )):
Plus, chemistry tests for this term made me so demoralised.
Organic chemistry sucks; my brain capacity is limited yet there's so much to memorise!
Ugh.
Before we had those tests, I thought it would perhaps be possible for me to achieve an A for Chemistry but now I'm not so sure anymore ):
So demoralising leh.

Sad things aside, we had National Day celebrations in school today.
I felt so short again!!
I guess when you people overlook the quadrangle, the railings will NEVER block your view.
I can imagine when someone looks up from below and sees only a head popping out.

Anyway, for the celebrations today, there were NDP songs plus quizzes and GM band playing live.
The songs part was pretty boring.
This year's celebration was different from previous years.
I think it was the rifle carrying part during the marching ceremony or whatever you call it and band march. I thought it was quite cool, right?
There was an NDP bag for us too.
Initially, I was contemplating whether to take it cause I don't think anyone at home would use it and it would look really awkward to be carrying 2 bags.
Then I thought I could let my mom use it for her trip tomorrow so I took it and stuffed into my own bag.
Then my own bag became so FAT and BULKY.
I thought about how people might think I'm mad to be carrying such a huge bag when I don't even have lessons today.

After school, J, K and I went to do CIP at the GE elderly HC centre.
How sad huh, CIP after NDP celebrations while everyone else went out to have fun.
Plus, I had to have tuition after that!!
I even dozed off while tuition-ing halfway, lol. I hoped my tuition teachers didn't spot me.

The CIP was okay except the polyclinic looked quite scary because of the H1N1 flu and all the workers there were donning on masks and all.
Oh yes, I managed to take a closer look at their masks and they were made of a styrofoam-like material which I thought looked better and more effective than those cloth/paper ones which sticks to your lips when you talk with them on.
The elderlys there were generally alright except some of them had dementia and kept asking for refill of their drinks.
The volunteers were quite pissed off with us when we asked them where the refill water was D:
Uhm, I thought some of the Ah-Mas were quite cute too.
It's like despite their age, they're still so bubbly.
One of them even sang to us!
Hahaha.


So yeah, that sums up my day(:

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MYEs are over.
Yay?

Recently so many unhappy things happened.
Thought my suey days were over but
apparently not.
"Your presence is a present to the world.
You are unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days just one at a time."

Is my presence a present to the world or more like an eye-sore?

一个不像家的家.
Coming back, is such a pain.

Why

Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You will make it through whatever comes along.
Within you are so many answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.

Things will always work out-somehow.

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This week was sucky. :/
Very.

I don't understand why humans love judging people from their outward appearances.


Oh well.

Ohyea,
Thanks for all the tags.

They're very encouraging, :D

Pondering in progress

Nobody ever visits here.
Look, one tag per month.
How pathetic!
Ahh, whatever.

Ohyeah, I dislike hectic S4 life.
Today I finished my meal in 10 minutes!
I was practically stuffing food into my mouth.
See, it's so hectic I can't even enjoy my meal.
Wow. -.-
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Take a look at this video.


How touching right.

And this:
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
And as in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say! 'I will call on Tim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him.'
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
'Here's a telegram sir,' 'Tim died today.'
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

Does this set you thinking?

Results collection.

1) Results collection.
2) Yesterday sucked.

I cried, kept telling myself not to cry but in the end I still did.
How ironic because...

I didn't cry because of my results, even though I did fail some subjects.
I don't know lah but I don't think I'll ever cry over poor acadamic results because life isn't just all about IQ.
But a comment made yesterday made me couldn't control anymore.
The presentation: part of it was because of that but it was also because of something else, just don't assume.

Then Ms Ngiao came and gave me a piece of tissue which proved extremely useful at that point.
That's why when I see people cry, since I'm not good with words, I'll just pass them tissue.
Thanks, Ms Ngiao.
After the talk with the teacher, oh yea, Mdm Sng came and talk to my mom too.
I already knew it had something to do with me sleeping in class.
Once, Kevin asked me if I was nocturnal, I forgot what I replied him but now, I guess I am.

After the talk, my mom went to look for -.
I was so aghast at what she said.
I'm already trying my best to reach that standard but I really don't know why I'm always getting a 50% passing rate.
It's not only me leh, please.
My attitude has changed from last year and I don't know why you can't see that.

She had a private talk with her while I got out of the hall-still crying.
Like wth, stop crying lah, it's embarrassing!!
Somemore there are teachers sitting on the table beside me.
Then Amanda came and tried to console me.
Thanks Amanda :D

After I got home, went up to KQ's house.
Supposedly to complete some homework but in the end, nothing was done.
With me, it's always like that one.
Had a small talk with her then she took out some of her baby photos.
At first, I couldn't tell apart she and her siblings cause they looked so alike!
But after a few attempts, I managed to spot some differences between her sisters and her. Haha.
Had a great laugh with her over some photos while Keni cracked some other jokes on them.
Kexin's laughter was very cute too, and her teeth!

This morning, fortunately tuition had been cancelled cos I woke up with swollen eyes.
How am I to face the teacher with such eyes?
Thank God.

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I forgot my keys again.
Wasted half a day!
How stupid.

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It's almost 4am now but since there's no school tomorrow,
I guess I can stay up later.

It feels as if I have so much to do on the net
especially when I can only afford to use it once per 2 weeks.
Hmm.
Sometimes it feels as if the whole things's gna explode soon.

The dinner with sunday school people today was cancelled again.
Fortunately I was just below my block when I knew it had been cancelled.
Haha.
But I couldn't enter the house cos I forgot my keys and had to wait for my mom to come back from work instead.
I looked like some kind of stalker stalking outside somebody's house.. :/
I attempted to hide behind the staircase so that people walking along the corridor won't see me locked out of the house.
But I realised my neighbour upstairs had their door opened and their super scary dog will certainly bark right at me.
The dog's barking can scare the hell out of you even if it means consecutive barking leh.
Super annoying.
It barks day and night-except now.
I don't think any soul is awake now except me.
Even though I can never wake up on early mornings.

It feels so great not to have him around (:

Mom told me something.
And I don't like it!
Embarrassing.

Dance session tomorrow morning.
Aw man.
I see no point in this anymore.
No arts' nite, no SYF, no performances for us,
what's the point?

I feel like I'm wasting my time, seriously.

Twiity twityy

Browsed through some videos from Breakthrough and I feel that
the nostalgia is coming back again ):


While checking my inbox just now, I decided to click on my own MSN profile to see what's inside there.
There was this "About me" column which featured my name, interests etc.
My name appeared as: *toot**toot*
and the "More about me" column had me writing infantile things in twit languages.
A total embarrassment to myself.
I don't even know why I can bear to publish it for others to view and laugh at me.

I used to be really twit when I was in P5/6 cause I thought twit languages are COOL and cute.
I guess that's how most twits perceive it.
Words like me becomes mwiee and you becomes yeuu.
At times you can't even make out some of the words lor.
Now, I think it's only irritating and un-cute.
Yuppxx ^^


Everybody deserves some privacy, if not more.
That's basic human rights, isn't it?


I AM random, haha.

25 random things.

I got tagged by Kelly on facebook on this 25 random things quiz.
I decided to post this up here since I've already done it
and this will at least liven up my mundane blog a little? LOL.


1. I think doughs are cute.

2. I'm partially sadistic.

3. I hate ants.

4. I once used a mosquito killer to spray on a cockroach (the cockroach died anyway).

5. I was actually born bigger than an average baby.

6. I think words like: fluffy, adorable, furball, roly-poly, poop and cottony are cute. :D

7. I can never concentrate on anything for more than 1/2 hour.

8. I have a S4 camp on motivation tomorrow.

9. I eat raw carrots because I want bright eyes like a rabbit and a superb eyesight.

10. I drink green tea because Mrs Lau once said it's anti-caseinogen/anti-casinogen.

11. I love pastel colours because looking at them makes me relaxed and happy.

12. My ambition is to be a patissier.

13. I am proud that I can finally appreciate the genres of music that my sis likes.

14. I am currently listening to Vulnerable by Vanessa Hudgens on Yuting's blog.

15. I don't like Vanessa Hudgens.

16. I am fickle-minded and extremely self-conscious.

17. Sis just asked me whether I wanted her Geog notes.

18. I know I can be really annoying at times.

19. I am random at times. ._.

20. I was told that I attempted to eat shit from a potty when I first learnt how to crawl.

21. I am myopic. Haha.

22. I just watched Quarantine yesterday-my first horror movie for 09.

23. As a result, I slept with the orange luminous lights on last night and got ticked off by sis.

24. I dislike pork.

25. I like baby Winnie and Tigger. (:

All appears a blur to me.

Shit lah, I'm not supposed to blog now!
But I'm still doing it, -.-

I just wanna upload some pictures up here and then I'll go off yah.












Are some things simply pure coincidence or is there more to it?
I'm not copying Jaime's MSN nick, it's just coincidence, babeh.
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Mrs Tang asked me why I wanna drop Biology when I didn't score that badly for my EOY last year.
I got a B4 by the way.
I said I wasn't interested in Bio and my memory is damn sucky.
Of course, those weren't the exact words ._.
I think she sounded kinda weird, like my neighbour? o.o
What I meant was the way she talked, er,
extreme variation of the frequency of sound waves uh?
Haha, no offence though X:
I'm so critical lah, haiyer!

I know she has my best interests at heart lah but since I've already made my decision [after weighing all the pros and cons!], I decided to drop it anyway.
Even though my Physics scored a C5.
Cause: when there's a will, there's a way! :D
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Certain things, even though they're right in front of me,
but I can barely pluck up enough courage to face it.

I've got no time to sleep, yet I'm still posting this?

I'm currently obsessed with Tahoma so I'll use Tahoma for this post!

Right now, I'm printing the NE messages for our class deco cause Suhui kept rushing me for it.
So now it's finally done! :D
I can finally account to you, Suhui!

This morning, all the way until the moment I decided to hand the form up to Mdm Sharifah, I was asking myself and the people around me whether I should really drop Bio.
But anyway, I still stood by my decision to drop-despite everything.
My stupid sister ask her for her opinion like never ask like that, tsk.
I could feel my heart weighing down on me when I was walking to the teachers' table.
And I seriously do mean my heavy heart, how true is that huh?
But now that I've 1 less subject to worry about, I can finally concentrate on my Comb. humans!
Speaking of which,
we had SS test today too and blahblahblah you know what I'm gonna say.


Yesterday was Popiah Day.
It was almost like a family get-together.
It's popiah day because my aunts prepared all the neccessary ingredients and it was DIY popiah time!
I guess making popiah is fun? Hmm, judging from the way my cousin wrapped it for us. o.o

Troy was there too! He's so cute! They called him leng-zai which literally means pretty boy cause his eyelashes are super long and his iris, super round (:

&

My eyes are swollen from yesterday's - so I skipped church.
Many things seem to have happened there, though.

I think I'm suffering from depression, many thoughts are rummaging through my mind every single minute.
So much so that I can't concentrate on anything, that when you're talking to me I can't concentrate on whatever you say.
Because of this I think I annoyed many of you, especially Jaime.
You'll be bound to hear a huh after every sentence she speaks.
I'm also very irritated by this, much say her.
):

Talking about school, I think Zhao-laoshi's lessons are very interesting.
I know many of us doesn't like him because of his saliva that bubbles out from the corner of his mouth and his straightforward way of talking plus he craps alot.
But don't your have to admit that his mode of teaching is very unique and we can actually learn life's lessons at the same time?
I don't think many teachers can do that well.
Another reason is; I don't sleep in his class, aiya except the time when we were doing papers.
Compared to Cai-laoshi's class, which I always doze off during.
I'm not saying her lessons are lousy but it's just that their methods are different and they concentrate on different areas.
And I very much prefer ZLS, plus he'll only be with us for 1 term so we might as well use this time to listen to relax abit!

Anyway, have a watch at these 2 vids! :D

Korean Boy "Touch My Body"


Ken Lee-Bulgarian Idol


If you're wondering what she's singing, here it is:

Mariah Carey-Without You
No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore


Have a happy CNY!

CNY 09!

Happy CNY!

Had our CNY performance this morning, and
I forgot my dance steps.
Due to extreme nervousness you know.
Wahlao, totally embarrassed myself on the stage.
At first, I was so nervous I couldn't balance myself and almost fell over.
Then my legs were shaking and shaking non-stop, damn annoying can.
After a while the trembling stopped but my mind went blank. So the rest of the dancers were kneeling down but I was the only one standing up, I was like oh shit man.
Somemore it didn't only occur once, it was several times lor. But luckily my super long sleeves didn't get stepped on like what happened during the rehearsals.

Later, I asked around to see if anyone spotted me but most of them didn't! Phew.
Actually they couldn't see me because all they saw was red cloths flying here and there and these cloths kinda blocked me.
Blessing in disguise huh(:

After that we went for a supposedly class outing but in the end only 4 of us went.
Went to Arab Street to buy their blingblings.
It was pretty weird leading them cause I'm usually led by others, and my sense of direction sucks really bad.
So I was pretty proud of myself when we managed to reach that shop without asking around. *ego boost*

Then we went to Sakae Sushi (merely for their buffet, duh) @ Bugis.
We were like some hungry dogs who didn't know how to get from Arab street to Bugis. My breakfast this morning was merely a bottle of ji-jing with my mom spilling the first bottle by holding it by the cover ._.
So while singing the CNY songs, I had slight gastric pain.
By the way, I think gastric pain is not as painful as how dramas always depict as.
It's something like a very acidic feeling in your abdomen area, I think stomachaches are worse lor.

Anyway, after reaching SS all 4 of us finished 8 plates in like, 10 minutes?
Then we played with some unfinished salmon and soaked it in a cup of hot water.
The raw salmon actually got cooked leh! Cool huh.
I think we ate a total of 28 plates = 56 sushis which almost caused our stomachs to expand till it got out of shape.
Why pay to go through such a torture right? Hahaha.
Ohyes,
when you're out with SuHui, you'll always be disrupted by her constant jokes about Justin Timbaland and John Lennon this and that.
Yea, it's really funny.
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It's the cooked salmon and the raw one!


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It's these things that make me really wanna learn baking well(:

Did youtube just ban all music videos?
:/

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O'Level results were out today and my sis got 9 points!
Omg, I'm so happy for her! I have never ever expected her to achieve a single digit.
Great, now she can apply for her dream school and get herself all tanned up playing soccer(:
I don't really bother with what's going on in my sis' life but this time round, it's really a pleasant surprise for me!
Really, really surprised. :D

Anyway, we were made to witness the whole collection of results event in school.
And it's damn depressing ): , saw people jumped for joy and some wept, I guess.
People around me were weeping and I felt so weird, am I supposed to cry with them as well?
I wasn't good with comforting people so I couldn't wait to get out of the hall.
It's so depressing, seriously, to see people who worked so hard but just couldn't achieve the results they wanted.
D:

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I'm officially announcing that I can't dance ): !
I may be flexible but I can't dance alright.
Am I gonna be humiliating myself?

Sec 4 life sucks.
That's gonna be my conclusion for this 16th year of my life, at least for the next 9months or so.
If you're wondering why I'm on the computer when I have headstarts tomorrow-that's because we're told to do up one personal time-table by Mdm Sharifah and an SS content page for LFL.
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SS lesson today was full of crap.
Like when asked how come she doesn't do printing, "Cause I don't wanna be carrying stacks of papers... ... ...it's so wasteful!"
I guess that's also gonna be the reason she'll give if we ask her why she doesn't print content page for us.
Isn't it the same if we print them ourselves?! We'll still be using up 43 pieces of papers right. -.-
And the second thing is, remember the one and only Geog notes she printed for us last year on Rivers and Coasts?
She practically just photocopied the whole book (or whatever) for us man.
That is almost equivalent to chopping down like 50 trees huh. What save the Earth is she talking about?
Lame.

Anyway, I slept during EL headstart today, D: .
Can you believe it? It's only the second day of school.
Fortunately the thunder woke me up and also scared the whole class out of their wits.

Oh, my english standard is deteriorating too. Ohman. ):
Gonna have to buck up by reading more subtitles now.
Ever wondered why, even though we've studied English for 10years but we don't seem to be improving very much still?

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Sometimes I wonder whether one should follow their own wishes or try to please the other party instead.

For me, I think I'll try to please the other person first.
Well, I mean it's better for yourself to put up with the suffering rather than the other party to misunderstand you right.

Anyway, had combined cell just now.
They had Ultimate Frisbees at HGS but I didn't join them. I can't even catch a frisbee, for goodness sake.
Met Mandie and chatted with her for a little while and ohyes, we both have LFL as our teacher. D: !
That is like the worst piece of news we can ever expect to start our new year with. ):

So, while walking back to church, I was 'cheated' of $7 by someone who didn't have money to pay cab fare.
Shan't elaborate on my stupidity though. Haha.
Thanks, Matt& Lucas, anyway.

:D !




Ugh, this post is so incomplete!