Was looking through my juniors' photos &
I felt a tinge of regret for not being more regular in my attendance so I could perform more.
Again, I had the opportunity but I refused to cherish it.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
MEGAPRAIIISE
I went for megapraise today.
It's been a few months since I last stepped into church.
I dislike going to church.
Somehow it makes me feel inferior.
But that's not the church's fault, it's the way I think.
I dont like socialising among a large group.
I always feel as though everyone would be staring at me.
But I know that doesnt actually happen.
Still, I'll feel very uneasy.
There's just this sucky feeling that I hate.
Last time when I was forced to go to church, after service ended I would rush to an isolated toilet that only the Ah Mahs would visit and hide there.
When I had to attend sunday school, I would roam outside the church so nobody would suspect I skipped sunday school.
Total outcast.
Thinking back now, it's quite funny.
Fortunately, I have very nice cellmates now.
It's like I always break my promises to them but they still continue to treat me so well. :S
Sometimes I don't really know how to face them.
Anyway, I came across this on tumblr and I love her doodles!
http://happymonsters.tumblr.com/
Take a look (:
It's been a few months since I last stepped into church.
I dislike going to church.
Somehow it makes me feel inferior.
But that's not the church's fault, it's the way I think.
I dont like socialising among a large group.
I always feel as though everyone would be staring at me.
But I know that doesnt actually happen.
Still, I'll feel very uneasy.
There's just this sucky feeling that I hate.
Last time when I was forced to go to church, after service ended I would rush to an isolated toilet that only the Ah Mahs would visit and hide there.
When I had to attend sunday school, I would roam outside the church so nobody would suspect I skipped sunday school.
Total outcast.
Thinking back now, it's quite funny.
Fortunately, I have very nice cellmates now.
It's like I always break my promises to them but they still continue to treat me so well. :S
Sometimes I don't really know how to face them.
Anyway, I came across this on tumblr and I love her doodles!
http://happymonsters.tumblr.com/
Take a look (:
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
(:
A few days back, my mom brought me out for dinner so we could have a h2h talk with each other.
She gave me a lot of advices then she asked if I had anything to tell her.I told her no when actually I had.
I couldnt bring myself to share with her my thoughts.
Afterall this is the first time we're having this kinda h2h thing.
Obviously it'd be awkward.
Oh well, things could've turned out otherwise.
Anyway, my mom keeps telling me not to give up.
I remember but it's not easy to follow them.
But today, a guy who apparently is the founder of my tuition centre came and talk to us.
Not sure if it's God will or what, it was something like a motivational talk. Like really motivating.
It came in so timely, he was telling us not to give up our hopes.
That 10 min talk the founder gave worked so much more on me than that 2hour chatting session with my mom.
It always like that, people always respond better to outsiders than their own family.
Btw, the Toa Payoh Sakae's food really sucked.
Lazy to elaborate just dont eat there.
We had buffet and my stomach felt like exploding.
I could've eaten much more lor, didnt maximise the money hahah.
Eh, I know people might smack me when I say this but I'm gna say anyway.
I think I'm fat now. o.o
I gained almost 10kg within half a year leh.
Not to mention that I'm short. Wahlao.
Anyway, last week during GP, Mr Quek was going through this essay on blogging is nothing than idle chatter and honestly I was kinda embarrassed. Cos keeping this blog seems meaningless other than recording my day to day happenings.
Maybe once in a while I can vent my frustrations here a little but then other than that like nothing else hor.
Then again a lot of people do that as well so...even if one day I dont feel like writing in here anymore, I can still reread my posts to recollect my past right.
(:
She gave me a lot of advices then she asked if I had anything to tell her.I told her no when actually I had.
I couldnt bring myself to share with her my thoughts.
Afterall this is the first time we're having this kinda h2h thing.
Obviously it'd be awkward.
Oh well, things could've turned out otherwise.
Anyway, my mom keeps telling me not to give up.
I remember but it's not easy to follow them.
But today, a guy who apparently is the founder of my tuition centre came and talk to us.
Not sure if it's God will or what, it was something like a motivational talk. Like really motivating.
It came in so timely, he was telling us not to give up our hopes.
That 10 min talk the founder gave worked so much more on me than that 2hour chatting session with my mom.
It always like that, people always respond better to outsiders than their own family.
Btw, the Toa Payoh Sakae's food really sucked.
Lazy to elaborate just dont eat there.
We had buffet and my stomach felt like exploding.
I could've eaten much more lor, didnt maximise the money hahah.
Eh, I know people might smack me when I say this but I'm gna say anyway.
I think I'm fat now. o.o
I gained almost 10kg within half a year leh.
Not to mention that I'm short. Wahlao.
Anyway, last week during GP, Mr Quek was going through this essay on blogging is nothing than idle chatter and honestly I was kinda embarrassed. Cos keeping this blog seems meaningless other than recording my day to day happenings.
Maybe once in a while I can vent my frustrations here a little but then other than that like nothing else hor.
Then again a lot of people do that as well so...even if one day I dont feel like writing in here anymore, I can still reread my posts to recollect my past right.
(:
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