Fb makes me feel worthless

It really really sucks to be ignored, it's just another way of saying 'you dnt matter'.

I've changed my blogskin!
My previous was too childish.
Love this one, short & simple (:

Started my job as a waitress for about a week already.
Up to date, it's still pretty okay. ( Albeit very mundane & tiring at times. X) )
But can earn $ leh, of course must sacrifice lah.

My colleagues are very nice too (except my manager can be v fierce at times).
I'm so lucky lah, so far all my jobs all got nice people.
I met a few who also wants to become pastry chefs in the future. We're even entering the same poly. Awesome huh. :D
& yea, because they're really nice people, sometimes I'm afraid I might accidentally "upset" them. That kinda insecure feeling.
I suck @ explaining but, yea.
I really really hope they can recruit more people soon.
I dnt wanna be tied down by work all the time lor. Deprived of my freedom to meet up with friends.

I've been feeling very alone lately. Idk lah this sounds really stupid & childish. All my friends are schooling & they've got their own stuff & I've got mine.
& I feel really left out.
Like why am I even feeling "left out" over such things which none of us can control right?
I'm just idiotic.

P/S I miss my friends D:

Lost my purse yesterday. Sigh so hard up for cash already still lose wallet lol I'm an idiot.
Time to stop being so dreamy man. And losing stuff. & so gehkiang. Anyway, I'm glad I didn't lose my ez-link lah.
Oh, I shopped with XM yesterday too! For CNY clothes. Even tho we ended up buying only 1 top each. :B

突然觉得自己很extra.
But 算了，that's afterall the reality of life. Time to move WX!

Recently I came across a girl's blog (around our age?) who got the chance to study pastry arts abroad. Really envious of her!
I really love reading her blog.
Sometimes, she'd update with really pretty photos of desserts, her study life & even recipes!
It makes me happy whenever I'm at her site.
HER BLOG!
Visit it, who knows you might like it too.
Wah, just realised she posted a recipe on Macarons!
I'm still learning how to make it. But I'm afraid of failing cos Macarons has alot of work involved & it really is difficult to make.
Doesn't matter, one of these days, I'll make it after I've gotten all the necessary ingredients (:

So the posting results were out earlier today right.
& SR's COP hit 14 points! Awesome much!! So proud man.
But I dnt dare to say this in FB cos afterall I'm out of SR already.
I'm worried some people might say I'm trying too hard to get myself involved in things that dnt concern me anymore. Lol.
Honestly, SR is the first school I've felt the greatest sense of belonging to.
Not so for GM, albeit spending 10 years there. Idk why either.
Prolly something to do with the friends & teachers I had. Not saying my friends in GM sucked, my closest friends are from GM & classmates too!
Okay nvrm Idk how to express myself already...
Anyway yea, so proud that SR's standard hit record high! (:

TP culinary management?

JAE results out. Got into first choice.
I know everyone had been so eager to know their posting results but honestly, I didn't really feel anything.
I even almost forgot today was the posting results. I remember last year I was more hype up bout it, purposely setting my alarm in the morning just so I could see the result asap.
Then Jaime called & asked if we should appeal to TP instead. As in TPJC.
I'm glad we didn't cos I really enjoyed my time in SR (partly because I didn't study much) & the bunch of friends I made there. I believe Jaime does too.

Now that I'm gonna be a freshman in poly, it does make me feel a bit indignant & wasted & unsure of my future blahblah & I still do not know if the course is the right one for me, but ohwell, let's just hope for the best.
Anyway, there's always something to learn from every experience right!
I wonder what kinda people I'll meet in TP o.o

Anyway, I did baking today again!




I know my photography suckssss but anyway, those bakes are major fails lah. Lol doesn't matter if it's nice or not.
Maybe not so for the pancake. But the first 2 (Meringue & Souffle) are supposed to look like:
(Souffle)


(Meringue)

So nice huh, compare with mine, mine looks like shit hahah.
I think if I dont say, nobody would know what mine is.
Hopefully on my next try, it'll turn out close to the above ones!

There's the jiong show & secret garden later(:

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^^^^^ The piglet on top so cute.

Havent updated this space for weeks.
Whatever lah, I'm always saying the same thing.
Nobody reads this anyway so yea, doesnt matter.

I've been keeping a written diary since late last year cos my friend gave it to me as a bday present. I've been trying to keep a proper diary since Idk when but always fail halfway through, be it due to laziness or what. But this particular one, I've already made 10 over entries! Highest record so farrrr. & it's nice to read my past entries once in awhile. ^^

Yesterday, my mom KQ and I had a meet-up with Mr Chua!
It's really hard to coordinate events man. But anyway, it was good. No awkward moments & we managed to talk quite abit. So, yay(:
I even saw WY & Lenni on the way home!
Oh I found a new job yesterday too, as a waitress at Let's sweets! Pay's pretty good. Only worry now is my would-be colleagues, wonder if they're nice people?
& actually my colleagues at Chewy Jr aren't so bad afterall. Initially I thought they didn't like my work pace so they kept making me do SK but later I realised, approaching customers to try the puffs was part of my job scope. So actually they weren't picking on me. Plus , when I told them I was quitting after barely 3 weeks into the job, they didn't give me black face!
Moral of the story: I was just being overly sensitive.
Ohwell, I believe everyone has their "nice sides" lah.

Tomorrow I'll be stepping into church after months of absence. Wahlao awkward leh. Fearful too. Got to pick out what clothes to wear also!!!! Totally hate the wardrobe part. To me, service = social functions. Sigh.
It's weird to see someone so nerve-wrecked over church right.

Lazy to update~

I've been really lazy to update my blog these days. This is bad man. :/

& my hk post not even up yet lol.

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR! 18 seemed like a really distant number when I was in Sec 1, cant believe now it's finally here.

New year, new start yea.

Anyway, I had my class chalet earlier this week. Couldn't bear to leave at first but now I'm feeling better. I'm pretty sure I'll still see my friends :D

& I'm so happy my cookies were so popular! Even though I made it from pre-mix, it's still pretty awesome :B I'll try baking from scratch the next time!

I'm getting pretty sick of my work already. Pay so meagre, I just think it's cheap labour. Tomorrow have to go back to work again, sianzzzz.

Srsly I think my lack of dedication is gna be my downfall one day. o_o

& the past few days were the poly open houses! I visited SP & TP.

SP is just dauntingly huge! & even though TP has the smallest campus, it's still big.

I guess I'll decide on culinary & catering management rather than baking & culinary science?

Somehow I'm afraid kitchen environment isnt the thing for me, it's rugged, loud & fast-paced.

A slowpoke like me how can survive?? Ohwells, hopefully things will somehow sort out on its own.

Meanwhile, all the best to all O'Lvl peeps! :D