This sucks.

They think I've no social life.

So sick of it...


But it can't change memories
Zach said, "anyway... everyone is emotional over such things... just that they don show out, observe humans more!!!".
Really meh? I dont think popular people will feel this way though. It's like the more you have, the more unsatisfied you are? Idk lah. o_o I sound so opinionated.
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Anyway, yesterday I met KQ & I was just talking to her bout my work & stuff. Then it's like very soon we'll leave school & start working in society. Then it struck me like Wow wo men zhen de zhang da le. 5 years, we really changed a lot!
Hmm, well, thanks (again) for trying to solve my problem yea. ♥
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Oh noo my mom accidentally bought the wrong type of shampoo

She bought the blue one instead of the usual green one.
I reckon both should work fine right? Like my dandruff won't come back againnn (like how it used to) & my scalp wont itch like shiiiiiiit. I still remember during that period I always chose to sit at the back so people won't see my horrible dandruff. & my scalp wont itch damn badly everytime after I bathe! So gross right. Dont bathe better. But honestly now, I dnt really care lah haha. But still, I dont want dandruff!!
Okay.........I just googled & actually all are anti-dandruff LOL.
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I noticed some changes in my voice recently. It's like deeper now & it'll crack occassionally. It's not voice-break huh. Probably cos I've been talking alotalot for the past few days. & today I had sudden flu outbreak at work, I almost suffocated to death sneezing & talking! Hate flus. :/ Hmm, just tahan for a few more days!
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I kinda miss brown rice a little.
Speaking of which, tomorrow I may be seeing S19! But highly unlikely also. Cos my work ends so late. ):
Can't wait for chalet (:
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Recently I've been making alot of friendship bands & guess what? My work there actually has a DIY store which sells like keychain hooks, strings, beads + all the DIY stuff!! I was so thrilled when I discovered that shop lah! Plus it's so much cheaper than PS's Beadtlesweet. Jian dao bao! :D
Handicrafts are so fun man. C:

My rainbow nice huh.

Sometimes I'm afraid to make new friends. I always fear I dont turn out the way people expect me to. & they'll eventually leave. Is this fear irrational?

Today's my 5th day at work. Time flies. (WL recently I keep whining about how time passes so quickly. Proof that I'm getting old :P)
9 more days to go.
I seriously hate having to talk non-stop for 6 hours but I really enjoy my team's company.
I guess I'm not really cut out for communicating w/ kids, my patience doesn't allow me to.
& so, I feel I havent done my job well.
I really like my team leader, she's a very funny & easy-going lady & she always places our interests first even tho we're only part-timers.
& I like my team people too (:
Idk if it's just me but I'll miss them after these 2 weeks. Sometimes I think I'm too emotional over such things. I feel I'm just giving myself undue anxiety.

Anyway, I have this gut feeling that my team leader doesn't like me. The reasons I can think of being:

1) I'm not serious in my work.

2) I give her the impression that I always come up with excuses.

For example, earlier I was already told to wear formal. Given no experience in formal clothes (sounds so retarded) I wore a jumper to work thinking it's formal. LOL how did I even dare to step into the office?? I really really had no idea my attire was SUPER informal. Embarrssing max. Then when my leader asked me, "So what you wearing ah Wanxin!"

I was like "Huh? This one not formal meh!". I bet she thought I was just trying to talk back or something. Shucks lah. I really didn't mean it. ):

Just came back from work.
So tiredzzzz.
Supposed to go out with SuHui tomorrow after work but yea it ends too late so oh well. :/
We got out after 3rd Dec ok! (:
Today the office people told me I must wear formal from Monday on weekdays and guess what
I wore short pants today! Lololol. Embarrassed max.
So tomorrow must wear formal. I've got no formal though :/
But things will always figure out somehow.
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Speaking of work. My working attitude was rather good during the first 2 days but it's beginning to dwindle away now.
Honestly it's not easy if you have to do the same thing for 6hrs everyday & my voice as usual just rusts away.
Why am I like that. I even eat at my desk & eat while talking to the kids. Wahlao. I obviously know it's wrong but I cont'd doing it. Wts. I hope after self-reflecting I'll stop it. Afterall it's only for 2 weeks.
Some of the kids that call in are really cute. Just today when I asked one 7-year-old where he stays. He answered I live in a house lah! Cutee.
Recently I've been interacting quite a bit with kids & kids are really tian zhen. Really miss the times when I was like that too.
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So true huh. I seriously hate it when I over-think things yet I can't help it. Nothing good ever comes out of it.
Just stop expecting & just take whatever comes my way. As always, no expectations = no disappointments.

My first job training

Today I went for my first job training.
Although the journey to & fro took me 3+ hours, the job itself was pretty fun. Idk lah, actually it’s still too early to say since I’ve yet to start on the job.
It’s like we have to pick up calls from kids calling in to take part in some Disney contest etc. Sounds kinda cute right.
& my colleagues (not very used to this word) were rather friendly too.
I wasn’t the only part-timer there, there were other people of my age too. & I’m glad I managed to make friends with them on the first day! :D
Since all of them had friends with them & I was the only one alone, I felt kinda inferior at first. Plus I didn’t expect to work with other part-timers.
But then they turned out to be quite nice so yay. ^^ I hope things go well. I also realised I tend to act cool when I have low self-confidence.

Yesterday went to Sentosa with S19!
I overcame my psychological barrier too.
Though I still dont dare to play ball games.
Havent played @ a beach for some time now. Think the last time was in Sec2 when my class went to Palawan Beach? Woah 3 years!
It was my first time seeing for myself how a proper beach looked like with all the beach goers etc. Lol. Tiring but very fun yay(:

Idk why my teeth seems to get more crooked.
My back tooth won't get out + I've wasted 2 months.
I think my dentist's gonna be unhappy bout this.
I cant wait for my teeth to be straight!!!! :D

Silliest movie ever. Though the movie tix were free, I still felt we wasted money. To think Robert Downey starred in it. ):
Ohyah cos the movie is NC16 & I went with my younger cousin, the attendant was like "Produce your IC please......." Hahahah.
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A few days ago my SR classmate texted Wanxin! miss ya!!! Haha. Life's weird wo you. Haha. No more maths rep, no more waking you up during lectures.
Kinda miss the times in SR. 1 year passed so quickly. Now they're in J2 already. So fast hor. (':
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Recently I came across this youtube comedian KevJumba via Fooxin & he's like so funny lah. & he's Asian! Haha I know what to do when I'm bored now. :)

What should I wear to Sentosa? I scared too bao lu leh. Hate thinking of what to wear.

Worked yesterday at Nanyang Primary.
Woke up @ 5+AM !! So tiring!
But I taught the P2 kids & although I dnt really like kids but those P2s were SO CUTE MAN.
So adorable & innocent!
One of the kids went for dental extraction & he was biting on a gauze then his friend asked: How does blood taste like? Does it taste like vampire? Are you a vampire now??
Then another girl asked me if she should call me Auntie or JieJie. Hahah cute not!
I also realised I'm taller than them by 1.5 heads only but at least I'm still taller hehe.
Then when I was about to leave, one of them came forward & gave me a hug! :DD
CUTEEEE.
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Went to meet KQ later. :D
Wanted to visit TP intially but my dressing was very ugly so we didn't go.
It's like had so much things to tell her so we were just jumping from one topic to another. Hahaha. C:
I think that's something good/bad about occassional meetups cos you'll never run out of topics to talk about but you'll also have no time to remember what you wanted to say.

Then we passed by this bakery The Icing Room think it's by Breadtalk
& their desserts are so pretty! Could only admire cos they're quite ex plus it's fattening!!


Pretty huh. Got my fav greentea somemore haha.
I wish in the future I can own a bakery like that too :D

OP is finally over. YAY.
Now I'm going to work & wait for money to start rolling innnn :D

Betiiii

This morning I dreamt of my ex-maid leaving us.
As in not working with us anymore.
The dream felt so real that I wept in my sleep.
Thinking of it now, I kinda miss her.
She used to text us once in a while to ask how we were doing but she hasn't done that for very long. Idk why. Maybe cos it's expensive?
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I was looking through my OP questions & while reading halfway, I fell asleep.
Ohnoo Idk what's happening to me. Why recently I keep falling asleep while studying? D:
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& I decided to do a photo timeline cos I thought it'd be fun...











As the pics show, my face gets rounder & fatter over the years. ):


&here's the maid (Beti) I was talking about. :D
It's true when they say people only start cherishing things when they lose it.

I'm so tired now wanna sleep but I wanna post this first before going to bed. :P

Today was my last day in school.
I really hope there'd be a class chalet so I can see my whole class again.
Anyway, my class made me this birthday card which is uber cute & filled with their wishes + farewell messages to me. Really very cute.
I know I'm gonna miss them. This year passed so quickly yeah.
Even though the friends I made in JC are different from those I made in Secondary school, & I couldn't really get used to them initially, but both changed me somehow.
We told each other today that we must keep in touch. They told me I must go back to visit them sometime. I was just thinking, it's impossible to stay in touch with all of them. I just hope that I won't lose touch with the closer ones & we won't forget each other completely.


As sweet as the cupcake ^^

:D

K, finally can go sleep now.

(:

Was looking through my friend's blog & I see how little things can cheer her up so much.
Really admire her lah. With contentment comes happiness. No wonder every time I see her, she's always so happy. (Yes, HuiQing if you're reading this, this is you (: )

"Sometimes happiness is not about getting what you want but being contented of what you have." ^^

Maybe I shouldn't have agreed to stay on & help in the first place.

Today we had OP.
Being me, I totally screwed up.
I thought I made major improvements from yesterday's dry-run but the accessor said I could well bring my group down.
Imagine how I felt?
They told me to be more confident but there's nothing about me to be confident bout. It's better if I dont perform well myself but thing is, I'll drag the whole team down if I can't present well. Shit. I've really tried to be more relaxed, refer less to cue cards, be more confident & speak louder but then I'm still nowhere near the rest. Why??
Just as I was about to get over my sucky OP, then came the stupid Q&A...
My confidence level dipped even further. I could answer questions posed to others but I fumbled at the one posed to me. I really dont want to drag my group down. I mean they deserve an EE but because of me, their A might just fly away. Really sucks man.