Back from HK!

I'm back!
Actually I was back last week lah, just too lazy to update. Yet to transfer the pics, will upload the pics when I'm not lazy to do so!
Didnt get to meet Sylvia & her family cause there wasnt enough timeee. Hopefully next time we'll get the chance again.
Mixed feelings bout this trip. Dk lah, but I'm bound to go back again for more awesome shoppinggggg!!!
& I ate alot there so I gained like 1+kg. (I was expecting to gain more but apparently all the walking worked!)
K said my face change shape -_- Not blaming him; it's the truth.
So when I was back, I went with my sis to do running. Then I realised my stamina really dipped. I could only complete 2+ 3km...not even a third of Will.run. D:

I wonder how did I even manage to complete Will.run. Time to work on my fitness alreadyyy been slacking for too long.
Oh & lazing around the past 2 months, not doing any math & whatever is also bound to degrade my brain cells. ):
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I'm finally meeting my friends this week!!! Kinda not used to it cos I used to see them everyday bu oh well, @ least we still do keep in touch! :D
Yea looking fwd to seeing them! :D

I see alot of SRGCE photos & they had so much fun!
Feeling a tiny tinge of regret for not signing up but nvrm looking @ the photos can comfort me a little.
I'm finally excited bout HK now.
Hope I'll fully recover by Friday, dnt wanna go there like a sicko.
:)

So listless the whole day

Still sickk. Sucks to be sick. I used to think it was cool to be sick. I think I must be psycho. Anyway...
just went to tighten my braces! So pain now, which is good means my braces is working its powers. (:
I kinda got a "lecture" from my dentist.
Cos I called up to "complain" about my more-and-more-crooked-teeth. I could tell she was pissed. Honestly I don't think I was in the wrong, I just did what I thought I should do. Soyeah.
My "new wires" look so hideous & funny now. Even the dental receptionist asked: Are you sure your braces has been properly done? Do you wna check with your dentist again? Hahah.
Earlier I met up with some of my F4-1 classmates. Although only a few of them turned up but we chatted quite a bit so yay.
^^
Went shopping with Ximin too. So paiseh, she waited 2 hours for me! :*
So paiseh. Recently keep inconveniencing peopleeee :/


Friends used to call me owl, they say I look like one & I guess I'm one too. Lethargic in the day & bursting with energy at night. I'd rather be the opposite though, don't wanna create the impression I'm a lazybum disinterested in everything. o_o

Past week update

My Disney job just ended last week.
I've been working throughout the past 2 weeks, I've lost track of which day of the week I was on already. Couldn't help having mixed feelings on the last day; relieved yet gna miss my colleagues too.
Well at least the last day of work ended on a good note [I hope] (:
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After that day, I went out with Lenni & JY for desserts @ Chinatown!!
Love the greentea snowice. ^^
We ordered 3 different types of desserts & ate everything together, I fell sick the next day.
Is it stomachflu? Stomachache + flu + dirraheo? Couldn't stop laosai-ing when I went to send the Lijiang people off at the airport yesterday. Fortunately the airport toilets are cleannnn!
& that was my first time taking train to the airport, quite a cool experience(:
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& we'll be going to HK this year ^^ I still dk if I'll be able to meet Sylvia there. But it seems unlikely cos our schedules don't seem to match...
& she's going to Australia to study?? I think it's so cool & brave of her. Anyhow I hope we'll have fun there!
& honestly I was hoping to go Jpn cos I miss it alot. But nevermind(:
& I remember I promised some of my friends we'll go HK together on our next visit but sorry I didnt have enough time to inform your cos this was a really last min thing sooo :/
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Oh yesterday I fell sick & I thought my fever was mothing much so I went out thinking I was okay.
Walking halfway, I saw stars & white spots everywhere.
Faces became spots of white. Kinda scary. I think that was a fainting sympton.
But thank God I didnt cont'd walking till my vision cleared & I rmb passer-bys were staring at me...Did I look like I was drunk.
K I just hope I'll be well enough for the trip, I wanna eat their food!

This sucks.

They think I've no social life.

So sick of it...


But it can't change memories
Zach said, "anyway... everyone is emotional over such things... just that they don show out, observe humans more!!!".
Really meh? I dont think popular people will feel this way though. It's like the more you have, the more unsatisfied you are? Idk lah. o_o I sound so opinionated.
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Anyway, yesterday I met KQ & I was just talking to her bout my work & stuff. Then it's like very soon we'll leave school & start working in society. Then it struck me like Wow wo men zhen de zhang da le. 5 years, we really changed a lot!
Hmm, well, thanks (again) for trying to solve my problem yea. ♥
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Oh noo my mom accidentally bought the wrong type of shampoo

She bought the blue one instead of the usual green one.
I reckon both should work fine right? Like my dandruff won't come back againnn (like how it used to) & my scalp wont itch like shiiiiiiit. I still remember during that period I always chose to sit at the back so people won't see my horrible dandruff. & my scalp wont itch damn badly everytime after I bathe! So gross right. Dont bathe better. But honestly now, I dnt really care lah haha. But still, I dont want dandruff!!
Okay.........I just googled & actually all are anti-dandruff LOL.
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I noticed some changes in my voice recently. It's like deeper now & it'll crack occassionally. It's not voice-break huh. Probably cos I've been talking alotalot for the past few days. & today I had sudden flu outbreak at work, I almost suffocated to death sneezing & talking! Hate flus. :/ Hmm, just tahan for a few more days!
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I kinda miss brown rice a little.
Speaking of which, tomorrow I may be seeing S19! But highly unlikely also. Cos my work ends so late. ):
Can't wait for chalet (:
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Recently I've been making alot of friendship bands & guess what? My work there actually has a DIY store which sells like keychain hooks, strings, beads + all the DIY stuff!! I was so thrilled when I discovered that shop lah! Plus it's so much cheaper than PS's Beadtlesweet. Jian dao bao! :D
Handicrafts are so fun man. C:

My rainbow nice huh.

Sometimes I'm afraid to make new friends. I always fear I dont turn out the way people expect me to. & they'll eventually leave. Is this fear irrational?

Today's my 5th day at work. Time flies. (WL recently I keep whining about how time passes so quickly. Proof that I'm getting old :P)
9 more days to go.
I seriously hate having to talk non-stop for 6 hours but I really enjoy my team's company.
I guess I'm not really cut out for communicating w/ kids, my patience doesn't allow me to.
& so, I feel I havent done my job well.
I really like my team leader, she's a very funny & easy-going lady & she always places our interests first even tho we're only part-timers.
& I like my team people too (:
Idk if it's just me but I'll miss them after these 2 weeks. Sometimes I think I'm too emotional over such things. I feel I'm just giving myself undue anxiety.

Anyway, I have this gut feeling that my team leader doesn't like me. The reasons I can think of being:

1) I'm not serious in my work.

2) I give her the impression that I always come up with excuses.

For example, earlier I was already told to wear formal. Given no experience in formal clothes (sounds so retarded) I wore a jumper to work thinking it's formal. LOL how did I even dare to step into the office?? I really really had no idea my attire was SUPER informal. Embarrssing max. Then when my leader asked me, "So what you wearing ah Wanxin!"

I was like "Huh? This one not formal meh!". I bet she thought I was just trying to talk back or something. Shucks lah. I really didn't mean it. ):

Just came back from work.
So tiredzzzz.
Supposed to go out with SuHui tomorrow after work but yea it ends too late so oh well. :/
We got out after 3rd Dec ok! (:
Today the office people told me I must wear formal from Monday on weekdays and guess what
I wore short pants today! Lololol. Embarrassed max.
So tomorrow must wear formal. I've got no formal though :/
But things will always figure out somehow.
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Speaking of work. My working attitude was rather good during the first 2 days but it's beginning to dwindle away now.
Honestly it's not easy if you have to do the same thing for 6hrs everyday & my voice as usual just rusts away.
Why am I like that. I even eat at my desk & eat while talking to the kids. Wahlao. I obviously know it's wrong but I cont'd doing it. Wts. I hope after self-reflecting I'll stop it. Afterall it's only for 2 weeks.
Some of the kids that call in are really cute. Just today when I asked one 7-year-old where he stays. He answered I live in a house lah! Cutee.
Recently I've been interacting quite a bit with kids & kids are really tian zhen. Really miss the times when I was like that too.
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So true huh. I seriously hate it when I over-think things yet I can't help it. Nothing good ever comes out of it.
Just stop expecting & just take whatever comes my way. As always, no expectations = no disappointments.

My first job training

Today I went for my first job training.
Although the journey to & fro took me 3+ hours, the job itself was pretty fun. Idk lah, actually it’s still too early to say since I’ve yet to start on the job.
It’s like we have to pick up calls from kids calling in to take part in some Disney contest etc. Sounds kinda cute right.
& my colleagues (not very used to this word) were rather friendly too.
I wasn’t the only part-timer there, there were other people of my age too. & I’m glad I managed to make friends with them on the first day! :D
Since all of them had friends with them & I was the only one alone, I felt kinda inferior at first. Plus I didn’t expect to work with other part-timers.
But then they turned out to be quite nice so yay. ^^ I hope things go well. I also realised I tend to act cool when I have low self-confidence.

Yesterday went to Sentosa with S19!
I overcame my psychological barrier too.
Though I still dont dare to play ball games.
Havent played @ a beach for some time now. Think the last time was in Sec2 when my class went to Palawan Beach? Woah 3 years!
It was my first time seeing for myself how a proper beach looked like with all the beach goers etc. Lol. Tiring but very fun yay(:

Idk why my teeth seems to get more crooked.
My back tooth won't get out + I've wasted 2 months.
I think my dentist's gonna be unhappy bout this.
I cant wait for my teeth to be straight!!!! :D

Silliest movie ever. Though the movie tix were free, I still felt we wasted money. To think Robert Downey starred in it. ):
Ohyah cos the movie is NC16 & I went with my younger cousin, the attendant was like "Produce your IC please......." Hahahah.
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A few days ago my SR classmate texted Wanxin! miss ya!!! Haha. Life's weird wo you. Haha. No more maths rep, no more waking you up during lectures.
Kinda miss the times in SR. 1 year passed so quickly. Now they're in J2 already. So fast hor. (':
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Recently I came across this youtube comedian KevJumba via Fooxin & he's like so funny lah. & he's Asian! Haha I know what to do when I'm bored now. :)

What should I wear to Sentosa? I scared too bao lu leh. Hate thinking of what to wear.

Worked yesterday at Nanyang Primary.
Woke up @ 5+AM !! So tiring!
But I taught the P2 kids & although I dnt really like kids but those P2s were SO CUTE MAN.
So adorable & innocent!
One of the kids went for dental extraction & he was biting on a gauze then his friend asked: How does blood taste like? Does it taste like vampire? Are you a vampire now??
Then another girl asked me if she should call me Auntie or JieJie. Hahah cute not!
I also realised I'm taller than them by 1.5 heads only but at least I'm still taller hehe.
Then when I was about to leave, one of them came forward & gave me a hug! :DD
CUTEEEE.
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Went to meet KQ later. :D
Wanted to visit TP intially but my dressing was very ugly so we didn't go.
It's like had so much things to tell her so we were just jumping from one topic to another. Hahaha. C:
I think that's something good/bad about occassional meetups cos you'll never run out of topics to talk about but you'll also have no time to remember what you wanted to say.

Then we passed by this bakery The Icing Room think it's by Breadtalk
& their desserts are so pretty! Could only admire cos they're quite ex plus it's fattening!!


Pretty huh. Got my fav greentea somemore haha.
I wish in the future I can own a bakery like that too :D

OP is finally over. YAY.
Now I'm going to work & wait for money to start rolling innnn :D

Betiiii

This morning I dreamt of my ex-maid leaving us.
As in not working with us anymore.
The dream felt so real that I wept in my sleep.
Thinking of it now, I kinda miss her.
She used to text us once in a while to ask how we were doing but she hasn't done that for very long. Idk why. Maybe cos it's expensive?
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I was looking through my OP questions & while reading halfway, I fell asleep.
Ohnoo Idk what's happening to me. Why recently I keep falling asleep while studying? D:
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& I decided to do a photo timeline cos I thought it'd be fun...











As the pics show, my face gets rounder & fatter over the years. ):


&here's the maid (Beti) I was talking about. :D
It's true when they say people only start cherishing things when they lose it.

I'm so tired now wanna sleep but I wanna post this first before going to bed. :P

Today was my last day in school.
I really hope there'd be a class chalet so I can see my whole class again.
Anyway, my class made me this birthday card which is uber cute & filled with their wishes + farewell messages to me. Really very cute.
I know I'm gonna miss them. This year passed so quickly yeah.
Even though the friends I made in JC are different from those I made in Secondary school, & I couldn't really get used to them initially, but both changed me somehow.
We told each other today that we must keep in touch. They told me I must go back to visit them sometime. I was just thinking, it's impossible to stay in touch with all of them. I just hope that I won't lose touch with the closer ones & we won't forget each other completely.


As sweet as the cupcake ^^

:D

K, finally can go sleep now.

(:

Was looking through my friend's blog & I see how little things can cheer her up so much.
Really admire her lah. With contentment comes happiness. No wonder every time I see her, she's always so happy. (Yes, HuiQing if you're reading this, this is you (: )

"Sometimes happiness is not about getting what you want but being contented of what you have." ^^

Maybe I shouldn't have agreed to stay on & help in the first place.

Today we had OP.
Being me, I totally screwed up.
I thought I made major improvements from yesterday's dry-run but the accessor said I could well bring my group down.
Imagine how I felt?
They told me to be more confident but there's nothing about me to be confident bout. It's better if I dont perform well myself but thing is, I'll drag the whole team down if I can't present well. Shit. I've really tried to be more relaxed, refer less to cue cards, be more confident & speak louder but then I'm still nowhere near the rest. Why??
Just as I was about to get over my sucky OP, then came the stupid Q&A...
My confidence level dipped even further. I could answer questions posed to others but I fumbled at the one posed to me. I really dont want to drag my group down. I mean they deserve an EE but because of me, their A might just fly away. Really sucks man.

:DD

Happy belated birthday to me, :D
Lol haha.
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Thanks everyone for celebrating & wishing me(:
Don't know what to say.
Didn't expect so many people to wish me on FB. XD

Haven't celebrated my birthday for many years already.
My family doesn't even care, to me, they're only concerned bout eating the cake.
If don't care, might as well don't bother altogether, don't do it on the pretext of something else.
Probably only my mom bothers but yea, it's really sad.
Whatever, why celebrate when it's meaningless right.

Anyway, yesterday, I had so much fun!
After Commendation Day,
went out with my JC friends to sing K.
Even though I didn't sing alot but I really enjoyed myself alot.
They even bought a whole cake! Cos usually, they just buy 1 slice. So yea (':

Then Julia even made me a collage photo frame!


So nice hor.
:D

But so sad, next year I won't be together with them anymore ):
Can't believe 1 year just passed like that.
Nevermind, I can always go back & visit them.
I wonder how all of us will become by then.

After that, left to have dinner with my Secondary school mates.
Caught up with each other quite a bit.
Much more than the BBQ we had. Haha, probably cause the BBQ had more people?
^^
Yay.

Awwww

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Today I caught a glimpse of the b'day card my class made. Nice ^^
I'm excited for tomorrow hahah.
It's Commendation Day + K-box + meeting my Secondary classmates!
Yay.
The feeling is kinda like the day before you go overseas that sort of feeling.
:D

If you're brave enough to say "goodbye" life will reward you with a new "hello".

I was late for school today.
1.5 hours late cos I off-ed my alarm lol.
I texted my CT & she sounded furious.
She told me to see her. I was so scared lah.
I don't remember her sounding so angry before.
In the end, when I looked her up, she didn't scold me! She didn't even sound angry!
Seriously thank God man.
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Had mock OP today. 1st round only.
Felt so nervous. & it's only presenting to my class but I'm already so fearful.
Real OP how?
Though it doesn't matter anymore but still I hope to try my best.
Do things must you shi you zhong what.
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Oh, O'level starts Monday.
So fast huh.
I could imagine myself last year.
Oh well.
Hmm all the best to all the O level peeps :DD !
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Ohyah I'm into making friendship bands recently so cooool.
Can't wait to give to my friends. Hope they'll like it {:

Life is too short to waste a single second with anyone who doesn’t appreciate & value you

Got back results today.
Rank points: 23/80.
As expected.
But it's okay, I've no regrets. I'm much luckier than other people because I already know what I want.
At least now I've got an aim right. (:
I'm glad I'm able to hold my stand when people discourage me from leaving (out of goodwill).
I changed so much I realised.
Thankyou: KeQian, Jaime, Julia, Zach, Sulenni etcetc for your encouragements & support :D
Your have no idea how much the things said impacted me.
(:

"At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us."

Albert Schweitzer

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Recently I realised some of my friends have changed a bit.
But Idk if they were the ones who changed or it's me that has changed.

Sometimes when I rant about some people, for some reason, the person I ranted on seemingly changes to become better. Then I'll regret bitching about them. This kinda feeling sucks. I feel so hypocritical like that.
Sometimes when I'm unhappy with a person, Idk if the problem lies with me or that person. Is it cos I'm too critical, too fussy or is that person truly irksome?
Sometimes when you feel so un-appreciated, do you feel no matter what you do it's never enough to satisfy people? Do you feel tired sacrificing for people who take things for granted? Sometimes it sucks to put up a forced smile just because you don't want your own unhappiness to spread to others. Again, is it just me over-thinking or what?

People's support was what I needed most & I got it!
Wowwww.
Thanks for not putting me down!

Piece of shit.

You may be reading this, hhx, just want you to know I don't give a damn to what you think of me.
Think what you want of me I don't care.
I'm "full of shit"? Whatever.
Why should I even be affected, especially when it's from you.
& you know what, you're no better.
Who're you to say me when you're just the same?
You'll refuse to admit it but it doesn't mean anything.
It just proves how shallow you are.
Lastly, I don't flare up for no reason, just think about how long I've put up with all of you.

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Had my maths paper this week.
Total disappointment.
That was the only subject I dared hope to do well.
But first question I stumbled already.
Doing well for 1 subject is too much to ask for meh.
But whatever lah.
To think my mom still wasted so much money on my tuition.
But honestly, I'm kinda glad I didnt know how to do, at least it gives me the assurance I need.
A few days ago I came across this interview with this young pastry chef, so inspiring lah. C: !!
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I think my sleeping problem is becoming more serious.
I actually dozed off during the exam leh.
Where got people sleep during exams one.
& I dont like taking exams in the hall cos people irritate you and you irritate people and the worst thing is it's unknowingly.
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Can't believe it's October already.
10 months flew by.
Unbelievable.
I realised the older I get, the more I find time passing faster.
I'm gna miss my classmates & SR.
It's like can already feel it now lol.
Cant believe 1 year's gna end soon. :OO

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Was looking through my juniors' photos &
I felt a tinge of regret for not being more regular in my attendance so I could perform more.
Again, I had the opportunity but I refused to cherish it.

MEGAPRAIIISE

I went for megapraise today.
It's been a few months since I last stepped into church.
I dislike going to church.
Somehow it makes me feel inferior.
But that's not the church's fault, it's the way I think.
I dont like socialising among a large group.
I always feel as though everyone would be staring at me.
But I know that doesnt actually happen.
Still, I'll feel very uneasy.
There's just this sucky feeling that I hate.
Last time when I was forced to go to church, after service ended I would rush to an isolated toilet that only the Ah Mahs would visit and hide there.
When I had to attend sunday school, I would roam outside the church so nobody would suspect I skipped sunday school.
Total outcast.
Thinking back now, it's quite funny.
Fortunately, I have very nice cellmates now.
It's like I always break my promises to them but they still continue to treat me so well. :S
Sometimes I don't really know how to face them.

Anyway, I came across this on tumblr and I love her doodles!
http://happymonsters.tumblr.com/
Take a look (:

(:

A few days back, my mom brought me out for dinner so we could have a h2h talk with each other.
She gave me a lot of advices then she asked if I had anything to tell her.I told her no when actually I had.
I couldnt bring myself to share with her my thoughts.
Afterall this is the first time we're having this kinda h2h thing.
Obviously it'd be awkward.
Oh well, things could've turned out otherwise.
Anyway, my mom keeps telling me not to give up.
I remember but it's not easy to follow them.
But today, a guy who apparently is the founder of my tuition centre came and talk to us.
Not sure if it's God will or what, it was something like a motivational talk. Like really motivating.
It came in so timely, he was telling us not to give up our hopes.
That 10 min talk the founder gave worked so much more on me than that 2hour chatting session with my mom.
It always like that, people always respond better to outsiders than their own family.
Btw, the Toa Payoh Sakae's food really sucked.
Lazy to elaborate just dont eat there.
We had buffet and my stomach felt like exploding.
I could've eaten much more lor, didnt maximise the money hahah.
Eh, I know people might smack me when I say this but I'm gna say anyway.
I think I'm fat now. o.o
I gained almost 10kg within half a year leh.
Not to mention that I'm short. Wahlao.

Anyway, last week during GP, Mr Quek was going through this essay on blogging is nothing than idle chatter and honestly I was kinda embarrassed. Cos keeping this blog seems meaningless other than recording my day to day happenings.
Maybe once in a while I can vent my frustrations here a little but then other than that like nothing else hor.
Then again a lot of people do that as well so...even if one day I dont feel like writing in here anymore, I can still reread my posts to recollect my past right.
(:

A happy post (:

Last Saturday, I went for the Principal's talk.
Although wasn't really happy with him for ordering Mr Tan to draw his notes, still, I can see the effort he's been putting in to help us.
Seriously, which Principal would come back on a Saturday to lecture us?
So yeah (:
Because of this, I feel really guilty for not putting in effort in my studies.
I'm not afraid of where I'll go. I'm more afraid I'd disappoint my tchers, parents & friends. Not to mention I'll miss them.
The money my mom's been putting in to fund my tuition fees, she could put them to better use.



Yesterday we had SPA & I think I did pretty well. I managed to complete the paper leh, I even had time to check (:
& this coming Saturday, I'm going baking at my cellmate's and Aunt's house :D
How exciting!
My cellmates say they're gonna make pancakes they brought back from Sydney and then teach me cupcakes yay.
Seems this is a lucky week for me ^^

Is one bloody Watson plastic bag more important than me?
Is watching your bloody TV more important than my health?
You gave me with those degrading comments over 1 plastic bag.
What is this. Thinking of it now, it's so foolish.
Now I know why I don't appreciate you, it's because you don't even appreciate me.
Stop showering me with fake concern too, don't do it for the sake of doing it.
Afterall to you, there's always something more important than me.

(:

Never been sick for so long before.
Why till now my ear still block?? Annoying...

Anyway, tomorrow I'm going to make pancakes at one of my cell members' house!
Excited! :D

This weekend I'm gonna have to spend a lot of money, on clearing my shopping list, art materials and treating my mom to a meal!!
Wahaha.
The meal's been long overdue though, delayed since last year till now. o.o
Probably all my savings would be gone.
Oh man then I'll have to start saving up again ):
You know it's really difficult to save up now, now that I spend 3/4 of my day outside.
And then by the time I reach home, I'm half-dead?
Really tired of this...

Okay, never mind.
Bye [:

Sorry to break my promise time & again.
I know you people are very nice and have been very patient with me, that's why I know I've disappointed all of your even more.

Why are they so realistic?

I may not say it out, that's only because I don't have the courage to,
not that I'm okay.

Proud of myself

Ran 11/12 km for WILL run.

Damn proud of myself now (:

I didn't run all the way, I walked too.

Haha not that super k.

Anyway, really glad my friends cheered for me. ^^

Really appreciate it.

It kinda surprised me actually.

The cheers really spurred me on to continue running when my calves and knees were hurting like shit.

Thanks Wan Yi, for running by my side too. C:

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WILL.run

Suddenly miss my cousins and relatives.
I don't know why.
I know the older we get, the more we'll drift apart (even though we're not that close).
What I meant was, we'll all be busy with our own life and won't have time to meet up.
Now that Popo has just passed away, I really hope we won't lose touch with each other.
Otherwise it'd be really really sad.
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Tomorrow is WILL run!
Can you believe someone who has never completed her 2.4km back then would be running 10km tomorrow?
I never believed I could get past 2.4, but with my friends' encouragement & ang ku kueh spurring me on, I've managed to complete 4km before (this may not be a lot but it's already a personal record for me).
So I beileve I can tomorrow!
Hehehe.
:D

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Should learn to control my emotions more.
Today was so embarrssing.

Misses them alot

On Saturday, the HK SHKEP buddies visited Singapore and Benita invited me to have dinner with them.
I rejected her initially, but in the end I relented because if I didnt go, she'd be the only girl around.
While on my way to meet them, my heart couldnt stop throbbing, I was really nervous about meeting them again.
I was worried about the impression I would make.
Finally, I saw them at the restaurant.
I sat down among them, and I swear I wanted to melt into my seat rightaway.
I felt so awkward and uneasy.
Afterall, we havent met for 3 years.
The fact that all of them were guys made things even worse.
But I wanna thank God for Samuel who lightened up the atmosphere a little with all his crap.
We chatted a little over dinner and I realised how gentlemen HK guys are.
How they always think in the shoes of the other party when they speak.
They're seriously so damn different from SG ones lah.
Anyway, we brought them to Esplanade to take a couple of photos. It was so cute to see them frantically shooting shots of the Esplanade haha. We had to rush because we had to catch the last train before 11.30pm.
Anyway, I just wanna say I'm sorry if I appeared aloof and disinterested that day. It wasnt because I felt reluctant but I just feel v uncomfortable when I'm surrounded by people whom I'm not v familiar with. And even worse, all of you are guys. It's just very awkward lah.
I hope I can still get to see you guys again, and hopefully have more common topics to chat about. I hope I'll feel less awkward too. Even though I felt like an oddball that day, I'm really glad Benita asked me over. Anyhow, I hope your had fun in SG(:
I wish for a day when all of us can get together and have a reunion again.
Like so greedy hor heehee.

Then again, Sylvia's coming this week!
Thinking of it makes me so excited ;D !
I can't wait to see her!!

Thanks, my friend.

"Someone who knows when you're lost and you're scared
There through the highs and the lows
Someone to count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you go"

Thanks, my friend (:
It isn't difficult to find out who your true friends are.
Thanks for making me know I'm not alone.

New Haircut

Today I went to school with a new haircut.
Almost everyone who saw it commended it.
It was really a pleasant surprise for me.
Not only did that boost my confidence, it made my mood feel lighter too.
Initially I was sceptical about my new hairstyle.
I was expecting everyone to ask me why I cut my hair(reason behind it being my decision was a complete wrong move).
But things turned out otherwise!
Now when I walk among my schoolmates in the assembly area and canteen, I feel lighter.
Haha thank God for this, without Him, I wouldnt have been able to slot into Aunty's schedule to straighten my hair so soon yay. :D

My blog's not dead yet.

Why must you piss me off everytime?
Stop acting like some immature kid who never grows up.
Don’t think you’re very cute by acting so childishly.
What have I done to deserve all these sh!tz from you?

My first post after so long had to be a rant.
Fine, actually most of my posts are rants.

Just came to a decision that I won’t be continuing with JC after this year.
Mom hasn’t given her consent yet, that’d be a different matter altogether.
Meanwhile, I’ll continue to stay put in JC and probably hope for a miracle or inspirational talk that’ll relight my motivation candle once more. LOL.
Afterall, who likes having to adjust to a brand new environment again?

School’s starting next week for both poly and JC (pardon if I’m wrong) :3
1 month passed just like that.
I haven’t felt so relaxed during June hols for a long time already.
Hah.
Next term, I’m looking forward to will.run and Teachers’ Day.
Not forgetting PW which can be both irritating and kinda fun too.

Oh, I’m also into K-Pop recently.
Only recently.
Always a step slower than others…
Still, better late than never hee (:

P/S I hate it when I can’t express myself well…

Finally an update!

School's been quite busy lately, all the teachers are just busy preparing us for MYEs.
Also, I've been dozing off everyday in school.
I swear it was unintentional. My mind will tend to drift off within minutes after lecture starts.
Then I'll drift off to sleep after that.
And sweets don't help either.
Aiya, so irritating.

MYE starts next week (!!) D:
Everyone's busy chalking up consultation slots with the tutors now.
It's like study leave now so we don't have to go to school.
But tmr, I'll have to travel all the way to school for consultation then back home then back to Kovan again for tuition.
I wish my school was nearer(like GM) then I dont have to waste 1 hour travelling here and there.

I think the best part of our MYE is it only lasts for 1 week ^^
After that, I can meet-up with secondary school friends and go baking at my friend's house.
Can't wait :D

Anyway, recently, one of my classmates migrated to NZ for good.
I was so envious lah, I really wonder what life in NZ is like.
I think quality of life there is better than Sg's?
I mean people get to lead the kind of carefree life they want, rearing sheeps and doing the things they enjoy.
LOL.
Idk lah, to me, NZ sounds like a good place to live in.
Hehe.
I wonder how my classmate's doing there now...


Btw, I think I'm getting better at running now hehe.
I can now run 3 km with minimal stopping unlike in secondary school when I would walk through 2.4.
Yay.
No wonder they say SR's a running school
(:

Ok, bye [:

Quiz 01

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: green bean soup
2. Last phone call: mom
3. Last text message: KQ (:
4. Last song you listened to: miranda cosgrove-kissing you
5. Last time you cried: afternoon

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: no
7. Been cheated on: no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no
9. Lost someone special: Grandma
10. Been depressed: Yeah…everyone has isn’t it?
11. Been drunk and threw up: No. But it feels kinda cool…

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. pink
13. purple
14. green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: yes 1S19!
16. Fallen out of love: no
17. Laughed until you cried: many times
18. Met someone who changed you: yup
19. Found out who your true friends were: yup (:
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: about all?
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2?
24. Do you have any pets: not anymore.
25. Do you want to change your name: yes, I wanna have English name >:(
26. What did you do for your last birthday: cut, ate and emo-ed with my greentea bday cake alone. Saddest bday ever.
27. What time did you wake up today: 10.15am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: making clay charms ^^
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: leading the life I want.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: today. Why is mother in cap locks?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: to look on it more positively?
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No -.-
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: that bloody choco banana cake in the fridge...
35. Most visited webpage: GentlemanBunny on youtube.
36. What’s your real name: Wanxin (:
37. Nicknames: guess?
38. Relationship Status: single (:
39. Horoscope: Scorpio
40. Male or female?: F
41. Elementary?: GMPS
42. Middle School? : GMSS
43. High school/college?: SRJC
44. Hair colour: brown. Btw, it seems to be getting browner, Idk why. (I nvr dye alr hor)
45. Long or short: short
46. Height: abnormally short -.-
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: no
48: What do you like about yourself?: I wasn’t born a guy cos it’d be disaster if a guy is my size.
49. Piercings: er… 6
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: righty

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: my self-cooked HOT soba mee. ^^ tasted not too bad but the presentation was horrible hehe. (refer to picture below!)
60. Drinking: -
61. I'm about to: go xiaxue’s blog
62. Listening to: -
63. Waiting on: finish this list…so long

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: dk
65. Get Married?: dk
66. Career?: Patisserie :D

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: definitely eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: depending on who
69. Shorter or taller: average height would be best. then I won’t stand out!
70. Older or Younger: younger lah
71. Romantic or spontaneous: depends…
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms.
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: huh?
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: in between haha

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: vodka + orange juice considered?
78. Lost glasses/contacts: no
79. Sex on first date: no
82. Been arrested: by police, no. by a passer-by, yes.
83. Turned someone down: yes.
84. Cried when someone died: my grandma.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yup
87. Miracles: it gives you courage to move on, so yes
88. Love at first sight: Think in fantasyland meh.
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: no, never
91. Kiss on the first date: no, like very cheap leh
92. Angels: yes, friends that heaven sent.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: when I was 5. that’d probably be my happiest point in life?
98. If you could pick a day from the past and relive it, what would it be?: when I still had my maid
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: depends on who.


My hot (hot cause I added egg ._.) soba! told you it doesn't look appetising. but again I say, the taste quite good okay :)
P/S I know looks like fried mee lah... who cares, nice can already XD

YAY

I passed my 2.4!
Thank God!
Hehehe! :DDDD

??

Got 2.4 run tomorrow
at 6.45AM >:(
Have to wake up super early just to run ):
It'd better not rain.
And I'd better pass.
Cos I failed most of my 5 stations.
Embarrassing anot since the school like everyone sporty sporty one. Ugh.

Today, we had distinguished speaker series during CT.
The founder of 77th street came and talked to us.
It was so inspirational!!
And I liked it very much.
(:

Again, it led me into thinking what I was doing now.
Today the principal said, it's be scary to not know why you ended up in SR.
True enough, I really don't know what I'm doing here (at least for now).
"The best prize life has to offer is the chance to work hard at work worth doing."
After I graduate from JC, I'll probabaly go up to uni, then what?
My dream is only to become a pattisier or perhaps an entrepreneur opening a bakery (haha...).
Would it be better if I spent the time & effort I'm puting into my schoolwork on my aspiration instead?
Afterall, it's something more worth doing right?
And the speaker today also mentioned that success in life doesn't equate to a uni degree (even though it's Sg lol; she's one perfect example).
It's like now everyone's working so hard preparing for the Mid-years and I'm still trapped, mulling over if I'll even last through this year.
What is this man.

I know this is the don't know how many time I'm bringing this up.
May be annoying I know, but yeah, just need to let out a bit.
((:

K, bye! ;D

SR olympics

Disgusting!!
Ewwww.
Sorry I have to cover it then I dare to upload.
Why can't my braces faster come?
This photo had to be uploaded on FB somemore.
Now everyone can see how horrible it is ):

Anyway,
we had SR Olympics (basically it's just Sports Day) on Friday.
I participated in the 200m relay event!
Surprised?
Ok lah, I wasn't supposed to run but my friend injured her ankle so I had to cover-up for her.
In summary, I just dragged the whole house down lah.
Before I ran, we were in second place. After I started running, other houses began over-taking me one by one. Eventually I became last.
Omg, imagine the embarrassment and guilt!
Even right now, I still cringe when I think of it.
It's like all the "it's okays" from my friends only made me more guilty.
Fortunately, the runners after me managed to catch up with the other houses.
In the end, we came in second.
I even got a medal (my first medal hahaha)!
Ironic yah. ._.

I swear I won't ever join running events ever again lor.

-

Hmm, the poly people are starting school soon.
I wonder how it'll be like for them?

...

My instinct tells me anon is ...... & Mr M is .......

Currently working on my PW and e-learning stuff. (wow this new font works!)
I'm supposed to do work but I lost focus and went blog-hopping after logging into the school site...
That's why I hate working on the computer man.

Anyway, yesterday I had a little gossip session with my class.
Well, apparently they were not too happy with this classmate of ours.
Actually I was too…
But I dared not say it out. o.o
I think they think I was just trying to be Ms Nice lor ):
How was I supposed to face her after bad-mouthing her?
Like continue treating her as per normal, as if nothing ever happened?
Wouldn’t I be like a 2-headed snake like that?
When my other classmates asked me for my opinion of her, I couldn’t really bring myself to speak from my heart… It’s like she felt so ke-lian all of a sudden.
So I tried to come up with some "philosophy" and hopefully get away from that awkward situation asap. ._.
I mean everyone has both their merits and flaws what.
Just that we tend to highlight more on people’s flaws whenever they do something that upsets us...
If we choose to always focus on people’s flaws, we might as well just end up disliking everyone…
Afterall, we’re not that perfect ourselves either.

Why is it I can be so tolerant towards my friends but not my own family?

Yay finally an update

Project work topics are out.
Gonna get really busy now... ):


On Thursday, something rather silly happened...
I was on the bus waiting to alight at the next stop when I realised my phone wasn't in my pocket.
I thought since it wasn't in my pocket, it must be in my bag.
Anyway I wanted to act cool and not climb back to the upper deck to look for the phone lah.
So after alighting, I searched my bag and couldn't find my phone anywhere.
I ran after the bus, hoping to catch it before it reaches the next bus stop so I can retireve my phone.
Obviously I couldn't run so fast lah -.-
Desperate, I hou zhe lian pi and tried to borrow a phone from one random lady at the bus stop.
Then I called-with her earpiece still piped to her ears.
And I didn't realise there was no ringing when I called.
I sensed vibration on my shoulder.
I suddenly realised I had put my phone into the shoulder compartment of my bag without even remembering!!
I immediately hung up.
& she asked me why I hung up after the first ring.
Omg, so embarrassing.
I didn't know how to get out of the situation without embarrassing myself so I fake fake called my number again.
And acted shocked, surprised and relieved (hopefully convincingly) to find my phone in my bag...
In the end, both of us just laughed the matter off.
I'm glad the lady was kind enough to lend me her phone (:

But anyway this embarrassment is nothing compared to losing my phone lah hor.
Thank God man.
Phew.


Anyway, recently, one classmate of mine asked me if I was trying to act cute (because I was doing some actions while I was talking).
Truth is I wasn't, I was just err, being me I guess?
Like doing all those stupid actions and facial expressions. (please hor, I'm not trying to say I'm cute ah.)
But when my classmate popped me that question, I was like at a loss for words.
I mean how was I supposed to answer him?
Like yes, I was trying to act cute, was I cute?
Then everyone would give me the -_- face.
Or no, I wasn't. And deny in every way you can.
Then people would think that you're being hypocritical...
Haiya, Idk lah, sometimes neither way seems to be right.

It's like when someone compliments you for a job well done, do you:
try to be humble/modest because you feel paiseh if you admit your good results cos it's as if you're trying to show off
or you thank them confidently?
LOL.
Sometimes when I don't know why way to react so I'll just keep quiet.
In a way, that isn't quite right also cos the other party would think you're ignoring them...
right?


Ok, I think I should end my meaningless post now.
Enjoy your weekend
bye :D


Ahh, I'm craving for chee cheong fun now ):

Caught Breakout with cousins today!
Awesome (:
The moves were fantastic lah.

But the ticket was rather ex.
$40 + I heard and my uncle sponsored me. :O
So paiseh.


Had tang yuan from Hai Xing Ah-Balling, again sponsored by my uncle.
$2.50 for 5 pieces?
Damn ex.
Apparently it's supposed to be famous and thus yummy
but I thought they weren't value for money.
Plus, they weren't as Q as I'd expected.
):
-
There's braces appointment for me tomorrow!
I'm putting braces on finally yay (:


I just realised how much I enjoy listening to life's values.
._.
Don't you think we can learn a lot from it?

1s19!

:D

Shitzx, getting moody again after thinking of...

Submitted in advance! XD

On a lighter note, I'm really beginning to love my class now.
I'm glad to see how everyone (if not, most) tries to include everyone (even those very quiet ones) in class activities.
How they don't judge you based on your outward appearance.
How they're always willing to teach you when you have difficulty catching up with lectures.
And how they're always willing to patiently wait for slowpokes (like me haha!) before setting off depite knowing it's gonna eat into their break-time/gonna be late etc.
I thank God for them. (:

Ok, I know it's damn stupid to be posting such things at this hour but look at this!







Cute or what!

As you can see, this is some Jap toy innovated 20 years ago (don't laugh at my obiang-ness) called Konapun where you can create mini imitation snacks that resemble the real thing like donuts, cakes & ice-cream.
You can even fry the donuts! (Just look at the second vid)

Trust the Japs to think of such things.
Coolest toy ever!

I can't wait to get my hands on it!
& I think I know where to get it!
I once saw it at the AB&C bookshop(whatever it's called) at Raffles City there.
Can't wait to buy it man! :D
So cute!





:D

random

Does looking at all these lighten your mood up?







All these are made from polymer clay & acrylic paint only!
So cute right (:

CNY!

Finally found time to blog!

It’s CNY now! Not to mention V Day too! ♥


The past few days in school have been hectic-very.
I can’t imagine this is only the initial part. The transition is huge, the learning environment is so independent. And the curriculum is damn sucky.
Come to think if it, surely MOE won’t be so kind to give us an A-level cert that allows us to go to any university without making the syllabuses difficult right? ._. They say the A-level cert is very valuable because it’s like your passport to any uni in the world. Now I can finally see why…
I just can’t bear to think how the next few months are gonna be like. :/


-
Hmm, anyway, it’s CNY now!
It’s probably the only time we can catch up with our family members properly for most of us?
Since Grandma passed away less than a year ago, we can’t go bai nian this year. ):
I’m literally stuck at home-doing housework, completing e-learning and munching on new year goodies. (I just finished 15 of the mini curry puff thing)
Probably the saddest CNY ever. But it’s okay! I still get to visit my maternal Grandma and catch up with my cousins there (:

Anyway, this CNY without Grandma (paternal) feels really different. It’s like the bond isn’t there anymore? And everyone just eats individually instead of together as a family.
The most unfortunate thing is-nobody actually bothers. Maybe they do, just that they don’t talk about it.
-

While cleaning my windows yesterday, I spotted a cocoon with LIVE worms stuck on the window glass! Green colour somemore! Damn gross! The worms were super fat too. Given enough time, they’ll probably grow into pretty butterflies but whatever, I sprayed them with Baygon before they could do so. Surely nobody would wanna have fat, juicy worms growing on your windows right.



Ok, gotta go vacuum floor now, bye [:

(edit)

Ok, so TPJC rejected my appeal.
I heard ------ is in that school too.
Why so many GM people in TP ah?
-

I made some new friends in SR too.
I think I'm very lucky to have very nice classmates and to have made friends so quickly in a new school environment.
I'm lucky to have classmates and CTs who are friendly and approachable.
At least now I don't have to worry about who to turn to when I encounter problems yah.

Today, I skipped school because I fell ill.
It was so dumb, I didn't know I had a fever until I came home and took my temperature.
And to run around the entire school with a burning head was like sheer torture.
It felt like my head was weighing down on me and my brain was on fire. =.=
And then yesterday, I thought I could do inclined pull-ups - the JC way, in some game competition.
So I volunteered myself, only to realise I could do ZERO when I was hanging on the bar.
I was like supporting myself on the bar like some idiot.
I really didn't know where to hide my face lor!
It could be because my fitness level dipped during the holidays or the JC inclined pull-up doesn't have the lower bar to make it easier for the chin to touch.
WL, I can still feel the embarrassment as I'm typing this leh.
How am I gonna pass PFT like this?
What more completing 10km?

The past few days, I've been travelling to school alone.
Sometimes, if our timings coincide, I may even get to meet Jaime they all on the bus.
I miss walking to school and going home from school with KQ.
It's like in the past, I knew someone would always be waiting for me to walk to school together.
And that was the time for us to like chat and catch up with each other?
Then now, none of this is gonna happen anymore.
D:


Got to go.
Bye!

What are you thinking, really?

I've given up on trying to decipher your thoughts everytime...

Yay, the numbers on my web counter are jumping really fast! Whee~ Feel so encouraged!

I mentioned before that I really really hate mass dance right.
But today we learnt the SRJC dance!
LOL!
I thought our school wouldn't have lor but I was wrong.
Fortunately the dance isn't difficult and the steps are just repetitive.
And we didn't have to perform in a small group!
It's also not as complex as NYJC's !
I almost died watching the mass dance video on Diana's blog!
Anyway, I think all JC dances are choreographed in such a way so that the guys and girls must interact...right?
Lol.
I realised I really can't dance cos I've got zero limbs coordination. -.-
Forget the fact that I was once a chinese dancer k.
Idk why I joined that CCA in the first place.

Oh, I was allocated my first choice for subjects combination too.
But we're all gonna go different classes ):
Does that mean we'll drift apart? But why do you seem so nonchalent about it?

There's gna be some amazing race tomorrow-in our new class.
I wonder how it's gna be like?
I guess I'll probably be the only one not wearing SRJC's attire.
Which means I'll stand out and teachers would question me...
Never mind, I've already prepared myself.

K, bye! :D


"When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."
~ Alexander Graham Bell

SRJC Orientation.

Baybeh, SuHui, AiLing, WanLing, LiuZhi, SiewLeng, Jigme, Maxswen, MingKwang, Eric & me.

We're now school mates!
(that is if TPJC never gets back to me about my appeal.)
So many of us right.
Haha.

And since I'm the only one from GM in the orientation group,
it was kinda fearful when I first sat with my never-seen-before group members,
but later I realised many of them are also the only one from their school.
And they're very friendly too.
Thank God right.

On the first day when we played ice-breakers, I was very worried the others wouldn't hear my voice. But many of them were also very soft so at least I didn't stand out! Haha.
Somehow in the course of the game, my name evolved from Wan Xin to Wan Ching. LOL!

First day of orientation was very dry since there were only briefings on admin stuff.
I even sat for H2 Arts diagnostic test where we had to draw and design our shoe and the Google icon respectively.
I obviously didn't pass it lah.
Halfway through drawing, I was so embarrssed of my own artwork, I actually tried covering it when the teacher came round...
Even the teacher said AiLing's drawing (which already looks very nice to me) still had lots of room for improvement.
However, I still appreciate the fact the teacher discouraged me from taking art tactfully.

The second day was a bit more interesting but of course with activities I dislike alot.
We learnt group cheers. The part I hate most (after mass-dance!!).
Slow people can't cheer properly ok.
I've placed my decision on either yoga or pilates for my CCA.
I've also decided on H1 physics.

The first 2 days of school were very very exhausting.
Probably because I've not gotten used to school-life yet & am still in holiday mood.
But really, it was very tiring.
I hope this stops once proper lessons start otherwise my work productivity will definitely be affected lor.

Anyway, here are some of the Sakae and orientation pictures!

Taken in the arcade after sushi.

While walking in the mall, we saw Mrs Yuen's new album displayed outside a music school! Cool not. She's still very pretty huh.

Orientation!

Majority of the pictures are in facebook. Go see!

Bye!